mystically purple

2003-08-29T07:57:00.000-07:00

Sorry Guys. Putting this space on hiatus for a while. Seeya guys ard... i hope.

2003-07-29T07:58:00.000-07:00

hi hi!!!

blogging has been becoming more like a fornightly kinda thing for me now.. hiaks. sorry guys. i'll try to blog more often.. but most of you guys are MIA as well. ppl like anne, christine...etc etc..

i cannot believe that i've been blogging for a year now. i didnt expect this 'hobby' to sustain so long. i always thought i'll lose interest in like no time.. but hey.. one yr!! the funniest part is.. i've only changed my layout twice! yes twice!!! hee hee..

the third one is still currently under construction, it's no major project.. but i'm just too busy to put it up...cos i suxx in html and i take like more thantwice the time than any other ordinary person to put it up on the net... hehe. yes yes.. i'm really stupid i know. i'm just not particulary smart in this department ok... so anyone care to help me out here? apparently my bf's not too good with html as well. ahah.. so he's like sooooo reluctant to help me out here.. Bah..!! *Strangles Dedy*

no major happenings recently, it's august already.. Quarter closing again for Oracle. So it's back to busy bumble bee lifestyle at work..well. i'll be expecting lotsa overtime too. oh jolly, i'll clock more overtime than go for holiday after that with teh 'extra' money?? i getting really sick of that place but i need the income to keep my quality living.. not to mention to pay off my debts and stuff.. sheesh. you guys have no idea how i drag myself to work every morning.. just simply dreadful.. why?? no job satisfaction , no respect , lotsa 'sai kang' to clear everyday. .. argh..~

havent been going out much either.. 1) too broke to , 2) nowhere to go to , 3) avoid temptation to buy things again ,4) NO MONEY!!! argh.. my weekends now are usually sitting in front of the black box watching DVDS.. hehe.. good ample selection of dvds.. hehe.. i caught 'american beauty' , 'driven' ,'something abt mary' etc etc..

oh yea.. just to say that there's this really good prata shop in thomson. the cheese prata & chicken curry is fantastic i tell ya. i've been eating for consecutively for like 3 days now. heheh..

Does anyone knows if we need to pay anything when we sell stuff on yahoo.com.sg auctions?? Then how do we go about posting an item to sell there then? Can someone pls pls pls help me?? Thks!!

2003-07-17T01:25:00.000-07:00

hi guys!

layout's and update is taking a little longer than i expected.but i'll get it up over the weekend k? at least i'll force dedy to put it up for me. wahaha..

so how's it going man?? lotsa activities happened over the 2 weeks.. hmm let's recall..
i finally bought a DIGITAL CAMERA!!! YAY!!!!!! hehe funny thing , me and dedy bought the same camera .. hehe.everyone says we're crazy.haha i'm so proud of it, so proud of myself haha.. i bought the Canon Ixus S400. really good camera.. so far so good!!! so that's one item off my wishlist! hehe.. what's next?? =)

Last saturday i went fishing at the kelong at Pasir Ris Park.. yes.. Pasir ris park!! hehe. i bet most of you guys didnt know that there's actually a couple of kelong at Pasir ris park. Really cool!! If u're interested , you cld actually visit here Friendly ppl, nice view,lotsa sea breeze and ample fishes! ehhe.. totally enjoyed my day with my bf and his friends. he caught 3 fishes!!! had them for bbq dinner. hehe.. lotsa pictures taken.. will try to upload them here soon. but i need to reorganise my photo album first .. hehe

Had my hair dyed red on sunday... but the colour's fading off. now it's like reddish brown instead of red-red. hmm.. tat always happens anyway. hehe..

i skipped work today , having cramps again.. plus i'm really getting sick of the place. hmm so what if u're working in a BIG company..?? bottomline is.. the culture there suxxs and i cant live with it. so sue me! =P

so glad it's gonna be friday tomm..then the WEEKEND!!YAY!! no big plans this weekend though..just chilling out watching dvds and doing the blog layout i guess. hehe.

Gonna have my final theory test later and guess what?? i've not even read up on it yet~!! typical me! hehe.. think i'm gonna flaunt it again. then gonna catch 2 fast 2 furious with shermeen and kevin together with dedy. hehe..

Anyways, a couple of photo taken at my recent trip to the Zoo with Alice(in pink camisole) and her daughter, Dana. I'm the weirdo in white top. ahha..

2003-06-30T19:43:00.000-07:00

new layout at work

morning sunshine people!!!How was your weekend?? i've got updates.. FINALLY!yes!!

Blogger came up with lotsa new features and better looking template this time around. neater looking and better enhanced features. hehe.. would really like to praise them for the job well done. at least it's so much easier for a web idiot like me to post up my entries...=)

went window shopping at PS on saturday, with the new Best Denki opening just ard the corner.. we (dedy& me) were playing ard with the sony's digital cameras.. man!!so tempted to just buy one camera. we're so dying to have our own personal camera. haiiii.... tried to get movie tixs for Far from Heaven & Finding nemo but all the seats suxxs. i'm not that particular about seats.. but he is. he would only want to take center-center seats. hehe...then we dropped by stadium cove for the bazaar and a stroll before dropping by borders to look for a name for myself. hehe..yes .. a name! shortlisted a few.. now i'm just considering which name to pick. hehe. it must be something unique and different...plus it's really difficult to find a christian that matches my surname -Wen. any suggestions ppl? i'll really appreciate and welcome all suggestions.

Did anyone go for the Pets Paw Family Festival at Bishan Park on Sunday? There were SoOOOo mANY DOGS!! Very Cute!! hehe. we kinda went down too late.. he wanted to adopt a puppy.. but by the time we reached.. the carnival's almost ending. i regretted not bringing coco along though.. hehe. then i realised that not many ppl owns chihuahua.. hehe..guess it's not the hot choice among singaporeans... unlike the JRT or Terriers...hehe. It's really a fun event for the family and pets. hehe... one of a kind in singapore..really wish they organise more of these activities.

Tried giving myself a french manicure for the first time.. hehe.. it turned out pretty fine i must say. heh. so proud of myself. ahaha.. if only i could take a pic and show u guys. hehe.. *shows off pretty manicure*

i'm gonna be really broke this couple of weeks.. damn. lotsa debts to pay off to...hai. i wonder when i could be like janan.. going for dive trips in perhentian. the photos he showed yesterday was really b-e-a-utiful. clear waters, corals,fishes... ohhh..makes me want to get a diving licence .. but it's so expensive!!! sheesh.. suddenly i wish i could win some sweepstake or something.

i found a school giving Degree classes for Tourism from Southern Cross University. the fees are still so expensive. Makes no difference if you study in sg or aussie man. per unit's still A$1200. it's gonna cost me like a near A$30k for that piece of paper. shit, who the hell can afford that? sheesh.. i was thinking of taking up loans.. but no idea where to go about it. hmm.. i really hate working though.. it's like the only pleasure i get out of working life is RETAIL THERAPY. bad habit....

if only i was born in a rich family..then MAYBE ..well just maybe, i might have a slim chance with further education.

quote of e day: Why do most ppl get killed by worries than work?? Reason being, most ppl worry more than they work.

2003-06-26T21:23:00.000-07:00

Hi?! *knock knock*

hey everyone, there's this huge revamping going on with blogger so i cant really access into my space. hang in there.. meantime i'll try to work on a new layout and find out what's happening around blogger. hmm... *puzzled*

2003-06-22T23:55:00.000-07:00

back from holiday

*stretches body*.. hehe.. hey guys.. i'm back from my holiday to batam. hmm it's quite a pretty interesting trip, many new experiences and affordable. I went for the spa in 5th Dimension (that's the name of the spa centre in Batam View resort)..the 3hrs of prince & princess treatment was really good.. body scrub,sauna,body massage,facial,aroma bath,drinks for like S$80. haha.. it was so comfortable that i fell asleep like so many times, i think i might have snored?! hehe.. i needed that kinda tranquility so badly. it was the best. hehe... i'm all happy now . hee hee

we had seafood at the kelong with beautiful view of the sea and islands nearby, seafood at our friend's restaurant which sells super tasty seafood i might add. anyone going to batam soon?? i intro you to his restaurant! service is good..trust me! we were all kind shocked by service. hehe.. anyways, we rented a car and drove ard the island, good thing my bf used to stay in batam for a while.. he showed us ard, his friends brought us for karaoke at one the high class hotel elite ppl in batam goes to.. the hotel situated in the top of the hill overlooking the entire batam. hehe.. night view was really beautiful. oh yes! we went for haircut over in batam too! hehe.. you wont believe how cheap it is. haha.

we had a little accident back there, but nothing serious. they have no driving etiqutte nor rules. they drive recklessly, good thing no one was injured and there just a scratch and dent on the car. sheesh...

i'm recharged now, this trip totally took my mind off work. i wonder when my next holiday would be.. hehe.. sigh it's back to work again tomm.

2003-06-16T22:45:00.000-07:00

Drenched

Fri- Dropped by the chalet on friday after work to pass shermeen her bday gift whilethe guys were playing cards before going out for supper with them at old airport rd, then joined calvin and his god sis at fat frog's to return him eugene's jacket. well.. i'm glad he looks happier now. hope things work out for him and liana .

Sat- The chalet was pretty okay.. very packed with shermeen's friends & relative. oh boy, she's one very lucky girl. hehe..but the food was good.. hehe one of the better tasting bbq food ever. and at least i got to see the girls again.. suhana and alice.. long time since we all met up...oh yea she showed me her photos taken in batam... hehe cant believe i'm going over to batam too this week. cant hardly wait. -smiles-

Sun- Was sleeping in the entire day away...then i caught a couple of dvds..'shallow hal' and 'the sweetest thing' . Nice shows.. Cameron Diaz's still as dazzling as ever. =) Had dinner at fisherman's village, geesh.. the food there is like so overpriced.

Mon- ahhh Back to work again.. really hate it.the weather's gone bad again... raining heavily islandwide and i hate getting wet in the morning esp when u just came out of e shower with fresh new suit and makeup smelling so nice.. had like 2.5hr of hideous meeting .with a really fucked up one to one chat with my supervisor.. i dunnoe what she wants from me man.. they're all getting me all confused. talking to me about commitment and drive. ahh bullshit. if i wasnt committed to my job,, why the hell would i stayed till fucking 1am in the morning on a friday night?and get myself sick taking into consideration that when to fall sick, i cant claim medical expense neither can i take leave?? bottom line is.. i dont work . i dont earn!! Geesh..

she kept telling me to go thrash with out with the ppl if i'm not happy with issues or talk to someone about it. but HELLO?? i'm just a temporary staff here.. you think i wanna make my life a living hell for everyone.. making a big hoo-haa and step on other ppl's toes??? u think i'm crazy?? sheesh... which till today i dont have an idea when i will get a comfirmation for my post. shit...

skipped work today, first i'm pissed with Oracle, secondly i got drenched from head to toe while waiting for a cab this morning, my pants were like so heavy soaked with water and my white shirt was sticking onto my skin.

i'm so looking for friday. gonna go for a short holiday in batam over the weekend with my friends... take up some spa package or something.

oh yea.. Happy birthday Shermeen and Dedy!

2003-06-10T21:40:00.000-07:00

busy bee

crazy week again, so freaking pissed cos i'm still doing lotsa OT clearing the backlogs after the financial yr and it's driving me crazy,i requested a pay rise..and i did.. a freaking increment of 50cents!!! argh..duh like it make a HUGE difference..shitty. Then my partner's transferring to another department soon which mean i'll be overloaded with work and underpaid?? and i cant handle so much work..i dunwanna work OT every single day. Yucks.. my contracts just ended yesterday and they're like extending me till they can get an approved headcount.. (LIKE WHEN??!?!?) .. so i'l only waiting till end june. sigh.. crappy isnt it?

i skipped worked for like 2 days, just went to enjoy myself ..met up with bernard, i suppose he enlisted into NS today. ehhe. Take care Hor!!!hehe.. got my clinique concealer , GG>5 handbag ,collected my new frameless glasses and i bought a pair oakleys glasses as well hehe.. i look so nerdy in the oakleys but its unique ..something different for a change. turtleshell frame..hehe. brought my dog for grooming yesterday,watched 2 shows over the weekend.."phone booth" and "ju-on".. Ju on is such a cheap thrill show anyways.. hehe... not really worth watching but phone booth on the other hand has more suspense and storyline credibility to it. ahh well...

i'm going for a short holiday with my buddies in batam next week.. going for the spa there. hehe.. soooo looking forward to it... and shermeen's chalet this weekend!!
alright, i'll update more later.. too hungry to think now.. i'm off to lunch now.. later!

2003-05-31T01:26:00.000-07:00

hell week's over...time for retail therapy..hooray!!

this week's has been hell for me. i've been clocking a total of 11-12 hrs of work daily.. i barely had time to do anythings or rest well.
i'm so glad it's all over now. all the stress,mad rush,endless paperwork,incoming emails and faxes... sheesh.. i'm just so happy my company's financial year closing is done and over with.. (yea right, monday's hell day again)....take for example.. i've worked for like almost 17hours straight yesterday on a friday night. i worked till 1am.. skipping dinner and everything, barely have time to take a piss. damnnit.. those sales people are just so..,,dumb?!? *argh!*....not to mention that Oracle is overworking me and underpaying me. shit~

everyone thought i'm just being depressed over my breakup or something, avoiding calls or missing in action ..come on.. that's not true lah.. i was just really really tied down by work....when calvin asked me where i've been for the past week, i told him i've been workin till late night.. he went like "hahahaha.. since when have you turned into a workaholic??" my goddd.... *slaps forehead*

good news is that i could buy more stuff with the 'extra' OT pay.. =) ..so looking forward to pay day..

bodyshop's having sale and i spent like $70bucks in just 15mins in the store??? that's the bad thing abt working in town area.. too much temptations....everywhere's having sale...oh nooo!!!!.. i have to learn to control my spending but a mani/pedicure session is definately on the top of my list now, and new specs.. my frameless spec broke the other night..damnnit!! sigh..

it's stress free saturday..woohoo.. i'm going for coffee,movie,ice cream,shopping later today. ahha...and of cos we're going to the zoo tomm!! yippee!!!! i love animals!! ....

2003-05-26T04:36:00.000-07:00

new life...?

Jeffrey, Sherie has shifted into their new homes!! great layouts... giving them some loving!

visited Brian,Estrella

crazy past weeks.. i've been like on unofficial hiatus for like the past 2 weeks and i'm not apologetic about it.=P haha. what have been doing then? well basically it's all about work. financial year closing end of may so i'm totally loaded up with never ending incoming work = lotsa lotsa OT. this wk's hell week and i'm skipped work today. gee..

caught "how to lose a guy in 10 days" last week..the show's really good. witty,smart,romantic and funny with meaningful storyline & cast. totally worth the 8 bucks. kate hudson's so cute..!! hehe..my contract with Oracle's gonna end soon.. are they gonna continue hiring me? hmm.. thing is.. i dont even know if i wanna stay with them... it's not as if it's the best company to be with but definately the 'exposure' is good (yea right) ahha.. we'll see then. i've been missing out alot on the recent wk's activites from my most fav bloggers.. i hope you guys are doing fine. really..

the picnic on saturday didnt happen, suhana's dad got hospitalised so she couldnt make it.i hope he's doing okay by now. we had to cancel the picnic last min but the rest of us met up in town instead. long time since i last met up with my friends.. shermeen and kevin..alice & dedy...haha they're a bundle of joy! heeh.. i bought a really cool leather watch and lee hwa diamond pendant n chain. it's really beautiful hehe. dinner at sushi tei.. pool at potblack.. supper at balestier,..breakfast at macdonalds...lunch at ikea.. ice cream at swensens.. gee i'm putting on weight liao! oh no ..haha. i'm looking forward to the zoo trip this weekend! yipppeee !! ehhe

it's really difficult for me to write out this entry.. despite the 'hee hee and haha".. i'm seriously feeling pretty low right now. yet still looking on the bright side of life. at least i tell myself i cant push away those who truly care for me... people who r worried for me,who got the florist to send flowers up to my place just to cheer me up, people who wants to console and stand by me , but it's really hard for me right now. especially when the loneliness kicks in or a certain song reminds me of certain people /things.. when i see/hear flashbacks.. damn..hurts so much man. but i know i've done the right thing.

i was busy settling my quarter life crisis to no valid..after weeks and weeks of tolerence/patience/fights/cold wars... i've given up on the man. thus ending my 4 months relationship with him. sure i'm gonna miss him afterall i gave all my best to making things work out but i'll never miss certain tempers of his. i had enough of you taking out on me for your bad days. so long , farewell mr know it all. i know u'll never call or beg me cos you're too egoistic to do so. so i'm clear and safe to move on with my life. i had enough of you and i'll cry no more for you. i'll find someone better than you..at least someone who wont deny my feelings like you did take my feelings and threw them aside like worthless things. that was my last straw...so i'm gonna leave myself with some intergrity,pride n respect... i know i did the right thing by leaving you.

2003-05-15T06:18:00.000-07:00

Vesak Day

Celine's BACK!!!!!! visit her!

ahh yes, another holiday in the middle of the week.-thank god!!- if only it falls on a friday then everyone could have a long weekend..-grumbles- work was evil yesterday, as the financial year cut off date inch nearer i'm getting more and more anxious and stressed up every day..to think my partner just looked me at me and commented that i look kind pale and weak. wahlua!! hmm all the paperwork is enough to bury me alive. shitz... bah.. enough of work..

i've been trying to catch up on reading other blogs but i see no updates (i wonder why?) then once i hit 'refresh' all the new entries came out. sheesh. my stupid computer..well,i've got lotsa catching up to do..but good thing most of e exams are coming to an end .. congratulations guys! hang in there..!!

i went out with my colleague last night after work, watched 'the gathering' and 'darkness falls'. hmm 2 horror flicks in a day. sheesh. but it was pretty okay.. not really that scary anyway.. too much computer effects i guess? i was like walking all around town the entire time..walk walk walk walk walk.. walking in heels.. all my colleague's fault! but his friends were kinda cool.so easy to get along with.. stress-free, fuss- free.. they always go like..."Life's a bitch, so why bother?" hehe.. that's exactly how i see life too.whaaha.. guess we all just belong to the same clan..i was actually hesitating alot before i made up my mind to go out and chill out after work last night..i just tot it'll be better for me to go out and do something instead of staying at home and sulk and start thinking about all my problems .. esp me and eugene. we're still not talking.. he's not picking up my call or sms. what am i to do then? sigh..

i took a cab home while my colleague rode on his bike following behind my cab..hehe too much horror flick. heh..we chatted a little while more at the void deck then went for breakfast at 6am in the morn. ehhe.. we're crazy man. it was good fun.. long time since i went out and enjoyed myself and i really TALKED alot last night..wahaha mostly rubbish of cos. eheh..

but the reality hitted me once again hard when i got home.. all alone to face up with the problems.. sigh. i'm losing the faith... i dont know what to do... i cant sleep i cant do anything right. ...

2003-05-11T02:12:00.000-07:00

wazzup? be warned!!!it's gonna be a long entry!

been feeling really tired and lazy to blog recently... running outtha things to talk about. i dont feel safe expressing my thoughts here anymore.i know there's many ppl out there who has been 'watching' me quietly from "afar". why did i start this blog in the first place? i was influenced by a pretty good friend of mine who has been facing lotsa problems and we're pretty far apart from each other. And when he started a web journal i tot a relatively good & cheap way would be catching up with each other thru blogging instead of icq. that's basically how 'mystically purple' came about in august of 2002. Strangely enough, it has survived till today.. 9 months & running.. i wonder how long more? however the sole purpose was not served as he no longers update his journal.. damnit Rambling Bard ?how have u been man?

for many months this has been a place where i would thrash out my deepest kept thoughts and opinions.. frequently referred by my friends as " Big Fat Juicy Details"..many have been telling me how upfront and 'open-minded' i am in not having any intentions on even reserving any details. till early this yr.. i stopped revealing things in here. i felt too many pairs of invisible eyes on me.. it's as if they're watching a drama series or something. My Daily Life aint for your entertainment purpose ok?..damnnit. go get your own DAMN TV!!!

*takes a deep breathe* well, many would have noticed how much quieter i've been this couple of months, too much things going thru my mind. so sue me!!! it's true how you wont realise how big the world exactly is unless you see it for yourself.. similarly, you wont know how well you stand at e edge of the world unless you've tried, isnt it?

my routine life's so lacking a wee bit of spice. comes every monday, i'll be so looking forward for the weekend.comes every morning, i'll be so looking forward to lunch break, comes every lunch break, all we could think of was ending the day at work.comes every friday, i would be hoping that my bf would be abit more excited over planning the weekend with me.. yet, he's not the least bit interested i suppose. oh yea i forgot.. perhaps he's TOO STRESSED. what the fuck .. what's the point of having a partner? considering the money factor and everything.. the best is to just stay home and watch tv or sleep. i dunwanna waste my weekends just staying home to watch tv.. besides i could still be single to do all those. DUH! hello.?! newsflash.. quality time over quantity?!!

what's it with stress man?? only people who studies have stress? oh you mean it has been proven by researchers that only STUDENTS have stress?? Or only STUDENTS have greater stress than people who are working or pregnant or aging or sick or serving their national service? HOW UNTRUE!!!???!!!? so you suppose the rest of the 3/4 population has no stress? come on, admit it.. everyone has stress, it's just how you deal with it that matters .. snapping at ppl sure wont help you deal with ur stress... so work on tactics that would better help you.

Retail Therapy so used to work for me.. but what the hell now i've burnt like $200 in just one weekend and it didnt even make me feel any better. shit! i bought 2 pairs of shoes and one left with with 8 fucking band aids & 4 blisters on my feet!! to top it all off ,
my agency credited my pay into someone else's account my mistake!! how WONDERFUL?? life's so beautiful.... ahh.. fucking beautiful...

After all is said and done, it's still better not to be too NICE . Happy Mother's Day!

2003-05-06T05:48:00.000-07:00

pretty inspiring email

One fine day, an old couple around the age of 70, walks into a lawyer's office.Apparently, they r there to file a divorce. Lawyer was very puzzled, after havin a chat with them, he got their story....

This couple had been quarrelin all their 40 over yrs of marriage, nothing ever seems to go right.They hang on coz of their children,afraid tat it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these yrs of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce....

Lawyer was having a hard time tryin to get the papers done, coz he felt tat after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldn't understand why the old couple would still wants a divorce... while they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband.. "I really love u, but i really cant carry on anymore,i'm sorry.." "its o.k, i understand.." said the husband.

Lookin at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them, wife tot, why not, since they r still gonna be frends..

At the dining table, there was a silence of awkardness. The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady..
"take this, its ur favourite.." lookin at this, the lawyer tot maybe there's still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer.. "this is always the problem, u always think so highly of urself, never tot abt how i feel, dun u know tat i hate drumsticks?"

Little did she know tat, over the yrs, the husband have been trying all ways to please her,little did she know tat drumsticks was the husband's favourite.Little did he know tat she never tot he understand her at all,little did he know tat she hates drumsticks even thou all he wants is the best for her.

That nite, both of them couldnt sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn...after hours, the old man couldnt take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he can't carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "i love u"...

He picks up the phone, startin dialing her number....ringing never stops..he never stop dialing....On the other side,she was sad, she couldn't understand how come after all these yrs, he still doesn't understand her at all, she loves him alot, but she just can't take it anymore....phone's ringing, she refuses to answer, knowin tat it's him... "wats the point of tokin now tat its over...i have ask for it and now i wanna keep it this way, if not i will lose face.."she tot... still ringing...she have decided to pull out the cord... Little did she remember, he have heart problems... The next day, she received news that he had passed away...she rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holdin on to the phone...he had a heart attack when he was still tryin to get thru her phone line....

As sad as she could be...she will have to clear his belongins...when she was lookin thru the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, beneficiary of coz its her...together in tat file, there's this note...
"To my dearest wife, by the time u r readin this, i'm sure i'm no longer around, i bought this policy for u, thou the amount is only $100k, i hope it will be able to help me continue my promise tat i have made when we got married, i might not be around anymore, i want this amount of money to continue takin care of u, just like the way i will if i could have live longer..i want u to know i will always be around, by ur side...i love u"

Tears flowed like river......

"When u love someone, let them know... u never know what will happen the next min.... learn to build a life together..learn to love each other..for who they are..not what they are..."

2003-05-01T04:47:00.000-07:00

yay yay... it's a holiday

i just read april's blog. i could totally understand what she's going thru and why she's so mad at him. i dont know about you guys but i've experienced the same kinda things like she did with eugene. seriously speaking, it does affect us (girls) alot cause communication is like the #1 key survival tool in a relationship. be it a platonic girl to girl friendship or a boy girl relationship. it'll kill us if we cant communication , just like it'll kill you Men out there not to think about sex. so.. lets be giving yea?

no work today , i'm so so happy. i just want to chill out at home and do nothing,think about nothing.. i did exactly that all of today. hee hee.. i'm proud of it. =P i bumped into my ex sec mate yesterday after work at citylink. well we used to be really close friends but she dissapointed me so i left her. never been in contact ever since we left sec sch.. she walked up to me and waved.. i was like giving her a rather disinterested look.. no sign of surprise or excitement.."oh hi, yea i jsut docked off from work, gonna go meet my friend for dinner now, you? she replied.. then i was like " oh okay. bye " then i walked off. hehe.. call me a cold, but i just seriously didnt feel that 'warm' towards her now. we've all moved on.. face it.

had dinner with alice last night, went to eat my favourite rochor beancurd @ selegie and i bought the heavenly tasting pineapple tarts, got myself a kimono top and coffee @ starbucks. hehe.. i only got home @ 2am. eugene was like " why are you still outside so late?" haha.. i need a break. i feel so happy to able to spend time talking to my gfs and bitching abt everything that has been happening to all iof us the past few months. i'm not a bitchy person but talking is like a instant stress reliever for girls apart from shopping and manicure. right girls ?? heheh

i'm gonna leave office early tomm after lunch. hafta go back to school for my Galileo exam. bah.. probably i shld cheat?? *turns into a evil child*...

eh.. my comments hits still not hitting 20 and above leh.. HOW?

2003-04-27T08:14:00.000-07:00

i dont know what to call this...

my first entry in a week!!! ..haha.that's right. i aint dead yet. just too tired to blog after work.. besides there's seriously nothing much to talk about each day.. it's just a routine kinda thing.. wake up at 6.30am and get ready for work, leave my hse for the mrt station at 7.30am,take train to city hall and walk the totally boring citylink to suntec city,zap my security card and punch my pin number,make my way to my seat and login into the system and the day's work begins with short trips to the pantry and ladies in between the 8hrs at work. i usually leave my office after 5.45pm, that's overtime by the way.. then i'll slowly make my way to the stupid train station again with these haunting qns back in my head " What's for dinner today? who am i gonna eat out with? where are my parents?what's eugene doing now? has he taken his meal??"... then i'll curse and swear on the train cos it's always so crowded. i hate it. try standing still in heels.. you'll understand why.

that's more or less how the past weeks has been like. no social life, no life,work life kinda sucky due to the increasing workload because of the SARS thingy . i dont even get to see eugene or Talk to him at all cos he's so busy with his exams now. i miss talking to him though. Hai...... fuck.i've got nothing and nobody to talk to... argh!!! i hate talking about work man...

i aint depressed but just kinda upset cos things are still not working out right..be it in the office or lovelife. anyways.. i was informed that i gottha shift to the office in millenia tower next week. dues to SARS... well..contingency plan just in case either one of the office gets qurantined.. the other still operates. so i'm really feeling bummed right now cos i gottha re-adjust and re-adapt to a NEW environment again and leave my perfectly cosy seat right now.. i mean hey! i just got used to my current seat alright?? i brought all my barang barang over.. now it feels so much like home.. hehe.. 2nd home?the worst is that i have no idea when i can move back to my office in suntec again.. i mean seriously.. as long as the SARS thingy still around.. the longer i gottha stay in my new office and it sucks!! boohoo!!

i've added a new link. Check out Geneve.. she has a pretty cool site!

i wish to express my deepest gratitude and many thanks to all those who has emailed me,icq me,commented.. i'm really glad to have known you guys. u're the best bunch of ppl!!! you guys rocks! Sei, A*pei,Carol,Bessie,Mavic,Jeffrey,hlmilk... etc etc..etc i hope you guys keep the comments coming in!! it has never hit 20 and above. hehe.. so... *hint hint* wahha.. j/k..i'm really feeling a whole lot better now, calmer and everything.. thanks all.

2003-04-19T22:29:00.000-07:00

twisted

i'm going through a pretty rough patch right now. i dont know why,how,who,what..or what's going on or what's gonna even happen next. i just dont know !! i'm starting to sink myself into depression again and it sucks big time. but still i have to thank my friends who stood by me over this long weekend to make sure i was ok and just spending hours to listen to me bitch about everything that has been going in my life for the past few months. no one could believe their ears, hah.. tell me about it. i dont believe it either. what's with me man?!

all my friends just looked at me with that 'i cannot believe you did that' look on their faces and shook their heads. they're angry & dissapointed with me. cos i just aint that happy girl they tot they once knew anymore. i think i lost myself so much in the process of seeking happiness.

who am i? i dont recognised me anymore. i cant sleep .. i cant concentrate. i cant do anything right. what is right then? how to subject to doing a thing right!? who determines that?!?

i'm not gonna keep myself at home to sulk and cry. i will not allow myself to go on like this. it's not me. i'm going out for a breather. i need some company to keep me occupied so i will not think and sink further more into depression. i'm not gonna spend the entire 24hrs a day to just think and think and think when there's nothing i can do but just to practice self control and leave myself with e last drop of integrity and self respect and pride.

i really don't know how i'm gonna pass this really big transitional period of time. i'm so scared , really.
life's freaking screwed up and bitchy. .. oh yea.. life's a bitch and then you die.

Happy Birthday Bessie if u're reading this. sorry i couldnt make it on time to send you a card. i'll write to you soon. take care.

2003-04-18T04:06:00.000-07:00

Good Friday

so how's the holiday coming along for everyone?? i finally got the chance to sleep in late today. woke up at noon for lunch!! yippee home cooked food's still the best.. even though it might not taste as good as restaurant food but it's still the best cos it's made with mother's love!! =)

just spent the entire day slacking away, sitting in front of the tv watching smash hits and crappy shows, pigging out with ice cream and whole bag of chips. woo.. hehe.. but it's really stress relieving! ehe.. theraputic effect.

i've cooked japanese curry for dinner tonight. yummylicious!! hehe. it's really fun cooking with my mom. she's so -blur- & funny... feels so good to be spending time at home. i'm going to eat my dinner now. have a good time guys!!!

nothing much to blog about anyway so i might as well reply to some of the comments you guys made on my previous post. *wink*

nikki>> hehe. those feet arent mine. heh.. i dunnoe if they smell. can u smell them?!?

yuko>> hehe.. er. okay i'll blog less of my sweet bf. ehhe.. =P

etel>> thanks!! you too! looks like u're getting pretty well urself too!! Dj-ing and everything! good luck leh!!*hugs*

a*pei>> hehe.. wait till e north east line is ready then you can take mrt straight to compass point lor. it's a pretty cool mall lah, considering it's a neighbourhood kinda mall. quite large variety of shops..so much better than jurong pt for sure!

Carol >> amk is pretty near to compass pt mah!! think there's even a direct bus there or something. oh yea there's a library there.. so you could hang out there to study probably next time? Idea hor? good luck for ur exams k sweetie!!

aNne>> definately, missing someone really sucks.. but absence makes the heart fonder mah. hehe. you take care yea? smile more.. you look so pretty when u smile girl!

Sei >> yea i'm trying to socialise with them over time but they're not very accepting to having new ppl dine out with them leh. sucky right?? when the problem doesnt lie within you and you have no control over such situation.. just feel so helpless at times. so right now, i lunch out alone. kinda pathetic but i'm getting used to it. sigh. heh

hlmilk>> compass pt ah? i dunnoe much, i didnt check out the place thoroughly yet. probably i'll drop by tomm again then i let you know? hehe.. take care hor! *hugs*

geneve>> thks for dropping by again. yes i can speak mandarin but not cantonese. hehe i've added u into my links.. so do drop by often k? and you could use this plug to link me up on ur page if u want to. =) take care hun!

2003-04-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

updates finally!!!

hey guys!!! heheh.. i know!! i know!! i've been like Missing In Action for the past week.my life's seriously crazy right now... or rather i would put it as "no-life". i hardly could find time to read blogs and post new entries now. tried doing it at work but never gotten the chance!! probably i'm still trying to adapt to the new environment and stuff.

over the weekend i caught 'the core', popped by Compass point .. it's a pretty cool place i would say. they have lotsa lotsa boutique including MNG!!! then eugene bought me a pair of slip ons. hehe.. so touched!!! he was so sweet to me that day. totally sent me over the moon man! *blush* , had coffee at Bboss,went over to his brother's new flat in Jalan Kayu. really nice looking apartment... but i just spent the entire sunday looking at them fix the apartment.. so boring. hehe..had dinner with some of our friends then i went back home to get ready for work on monday. WORK!!! sigh.. hehe..

i'm progressing pretty well with my work, but still struggling to click with my fellow colleagues.. not much time/opportunity for me to socialise with them. i'm always clicking away on my computer. hehe..

lunch was on the company today. they had this buffet thingy going on in the company.heard it happens once every month.. so free lunch..eheh. yay!!? my partner's on MC today and tomm.. so i'm like going solo and handling everything all by myself on the 5th day of work. So Crazy.. but i survived today pretty well.. so i dont think tomm would be a problem. =)

Good thing Fri's a public holiday.. cant wait for the long weekend. i need to rest,clean up my room, do face mask & most of all i miss eugene so much!! hehe.

well, will be back for more blog tomm. hafta call my dear right now... sweet dreams people!!!

2003-04-10T09:09:00.000-07:00

first day of work

well..nothing much to say about my first day at work. everything was pretty okay just like any normal 'newbie' feeling in a new environment. spent the entire morning just walking around, visiting our 'sister' offices in the nearby office towers and going thru some training. got a pretty comfortable work station to work with and nice environment..had lunch with my sister's bf at NYDC then spent the afternoon doing some real work. my comp's still pretty disorganised so i really have to think of a good way to get myself organised ..i did one hour of overtime today. hehe.. cool huh? first day of work do overtime?!?! hee.. then i met up with cheekoon for dinner at sushi tei. so good to see him again.. e last time since i last saw him was like probably 4mths ago?! dinner was great cos i finally eased my craving for sashimi and sushi.... best of all, dinner's on him! hehe..

thanks to all who commented on my previous entry (u know who u r) .. really appreciate it. like i've said, i'll keep on trying . give my best shot! ganbare!

gottha go zzzz now.. i'm so tired. blog more tomm. =)

2003-04-09T05:58:00.000-07:00

fruit flan & pineapple tarts

i'm feeling kinda sick from the long bus ride home.. 1.5hrs.. motion sickness..yucks.feel like puking but i cant puke? things are seriously not doing very well for me and eugene. the highs are over.. now we experiencing the lows and trust me, we're both having a hard time. the worst is that, it's not gonna be over for another month, probably things will only start to look up after his exams.. sigh. he's not exactly the type of person who can handle stress that well.. he just loses his cool and say things that he didnt really mean to say. he becomes really defensive and irrational.i mean i dont know how much longer i can just turn a blind eye on his unintentional comments without getting myself hurt or feeling bad... but i'll just try. however my biggest concern is that i might have a building resentment against him.. he has not been able to tune in to my needs yet. if only he would spend more effort in paying attention to me, or what i've got to say.. or just trying to get to understand me better without going thru a fight? he just cant handle the stress going on with his life... my god.. i'm just plain unlucky?

all the frequent disagreements & arguments are just wearing us off... so much so that breaking up might seem to be the best and last solution to him at times. but i think likewise.. ending a fairly new relationship without trying all alternatives is just 'escaping'. you will never know if the person is right for you unless you try hard enough to understand the person..he's not even trying yet.. he havent got the time. so it's not fair to me isnt it? sometimes, the fact that i see him gradually giving up hope just saddens me. i start to wonder if all i did this couple of months was worthwhile?

we had this pretty major fight last night .. it nearly ended with a breakup,after sometime he cooled off.. when his BRAINS were back functioning normally.. he decided to ditch the break up idea. then we had to make a pact that we'll settle all this misunderstanding we both have right after his exams which is a month from now. all i hope now is that we can survive thru this month then he can focus on working things out for us after he complete his exams.. ? i cant do anything at all man.. he hasnt got the time nor energy right now . life's a bitch man.

good thing i'm starting work tomm, i wont have that much free time to think abt him/us/our relationship. i'll try hard to perform well at work, build my career path.. just hope time will past faster. i went to sign my employment contract today.. yippee..?

went to buy a fruit cake and pineapples tarts from selegie. the tarts taste heavenly.. the best i've ever tasted. yummylicious....!!!!!

2003-04-07T23:16:00.000-07:00

i've got the job

i've gotten the job.. hooray?? i'm starting work on thursday. suddenly i'm panic-stricken. like " wot!!?? my long vacation's gonna end so abruptly??! just like that?!? i'm so not prepared for all these.." hehe... oh dont mind me, i'm just feeling paranoid with a new environment and people..i dunnoe if i'm able to cope. it's not as if it's the first time i'm working or what....this is like e 3rd time i'm gonna work in a big organisation but i still get butterflies in my tummy when i think of it?? haiii.... it's all the mixed feeling into one ya know? nervous,excited,looking forward yet dreadful? heheh.. my tummy hurts... woooooo......... ouch...

just gonna really slack my last one and half days of freedom away at home, having stomach cramp and it really hurts. argh.. i wanna have fun... i miss my bf now. ohhh no... hehe will blog more later. People!!!! Pls Leave ur Comments Leh?!!?!?!

I'm Angelic Cute!! made by Jen

2003-04-07T00:47:00.000-07:00

crying game

feel so tired, been crying alot over the weekend. things are just not working out right but still , i'm determined. i'm a person who has rather stubborn and tough character for a girl. ' take it or leave it' has always been my motto and i dont usually take people's attitude simply cos i cant be bothered to. i'll usually chose to walk out on that somebody's life if i feel like it or when i felt that i had enough but what has happened to me recently? i want my life to be simple and it has been for the 2 yrs. i cant be bothered about complicated stuff and absented minded , yes i am truly. probably, its what others will call 'naive'.

my mom always tells me that i'm too stubborn and overly independent for a girl. it scares men away... usually men would prefer to go for needy/frail girls....is that true guys? i have a mind of my own and i lead my life the way i want it to.. i've never wanted to change myself for someone else cos i felt it defeats the purpose of changing. only change when you feel that it's gonna make you a better person, not because of some tom dick or harry. they're not worth it. when in a relationship, the only thing that will work for me is compromisation. i dont want to my guy to always give in to me or i give in to him cos i know it's just a matter of time before we both stop 'giving in'... if we're not happy about something, why not just talk things thru and see how we both could work out a comfortable level of compromisation which satisfies both of us? i dont believe that there's ever a thing sooooo hard or difficult that both parties cannot work out on.

my bf tells me i'm too independent. i said " but i tot you liked me for my indepedence? now u're telling me i'm too independent? how contridicting?!" he said " well, i like ur independence as an individual but now we're a couple.. i tot you'll be less independent?" .... bahhhh... what's that supposed to mean?

'tears of the sun' is such a freaking depressing show. i cried like a baby man.. damn sucky.. been so long since i cried so hard at the movies. =P i'm really beginning to hate war now.

2003-04-04T20:00:00.000-08:00

As I've Matured

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All
you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some
people are just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and
it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about
fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better have a big
weenie or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to
others - they are more screwed up than you think.

I've learned that you can keep puking long after you
think you're finished.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do,
unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a
relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there
had better be a lot of money to take its place.

I've learned that the people you care most about in
life are taken from you too soon and all the less
important ones just never go away.

got this from one of my emails. haha.. i have to agree it make some sense. have a great weekend guys.

2003-04-03T04:11:00.000-08:00

exams fever?

i got a shock when i came online today. hiatus fever is back again i presume? a couple of bloggers have decided to go on hiatus. well, i do believe we all need a little time off at times. just hope you guys come back soon k?

eugene has been extremely stressed up lately over his exams and stuff. burning midnight oil all night thru till the next morning trying to catch up and revise his subjects.with all the stress... it kinda affects his mood.so he's feeling pretty low lately which affects my mood. cos it disturbs me to see him this way. hehe.. it's a chain reaction yea ? but good thing Ntu's postponing their exams till end of the month which gives everyone more time to revise due to Sars.so it's kinda a blessing in disguise for some and misfortune for others? hai... let all of us cheer each other on yea?... Ganbatte Minna San!

went over to macdonalds for breakfast with mom, hehe they're giving out pokemon stuff toy with every purchase ofa happy meal.. hehe. the stuff toys are really adorable looking so we got one anyway. heehee...i got a call from my ex supervisor from my previous company. and she told me they all miss me. -blush- hehe.. she has this picture of me taken during the dinner & dance pasted on her workstation to remind her to keep in contact with me . "aiyah, to remember you mah! to remember there was once this young temp girl called anna, really tall and she's ard my son's age." i'm really grateful to her cos she's a really nice lady as well as a really responsible supervisor. i felt very taken care of under her supervision. she's pretty motherly towards me too. and best of all she's about my mom's age. heehee... always giving me snacks,even helping me skin an apple, buying me drinks, even encouraging me to pursue my dreams and further my studies overseas. i miss you guys too back in drew ameroid... i had a really nice time working there... =) *sob* then she was asking me if i've got myself a bf..hehe.. the normal stuff..but i'm really happy she called! happy happy happy!

american idols' on... waiting for my dinner now too. anyone knows how to use Overture 3.02??

2003-04-02T02:40:00.000-08:00

the te of burn`

spent the entire day yesterday going to places ard singapore. i was so extremely freaking exhausted by the end of the day and i kept having leg cramps..damnit! *ouch* from commonwealth to queensway to bukit merah to orchard to novena to suntec then back to jurong. it was a pretty fulfilling yet freaking sickening day cos i had to put up with some freaking idiots just because they think i'm too young. what's with age man? it's just numerics isnt it? i mean seriously, if i wasnt up to standard.. then why was i called down to meet up with you guys? why waste each other's time RIGHT!? oh hell... dont try to be funny cos u think i'm young and ignorant about what's going on cos let me tell ya Mister! you're hell wrong.. you picked the wrong person to manipulate with alright? after all , it's the experience not the AGE that counts, so spare me ur crap and DONT WASTE MY TIME OK?

then i had to refrain myself from dissing off this rude woman from a recruitment agency who called at 9pm.first, she's offering this really NOT TO DIE for job opportunity which is so far away from my place, and it's a specialised job which i had experience in working at a private specialised company that's 100% guaranteed profit making yet she offered me a really, i mean REALLY low salary which is not even possible for me to cover my cost and transportation! and the salary offered is way below the market value in that line. then she gives you endless hopes which has no guarantee . worst of all, the conditions to quit the job is really too demanding and unreasonable and she demands me to make a decision right on the spot !! when i told her politely that i would like to 'think' about it, she snapped back at me " i really dont understand why you have to think abt it, i dont see anything for you to think abt seriously, would you mind telling me then?" What is the world coming to guys? being in the service line, where has the 'customer-oriented' attitude gone to? and what kinda strategy is she putting on me? 'hard -selling' or 'by force' ?! besides, to be crude; if there's no such job seekers like me.. you have no rice bowl k? dont even have to think abt commission. thanks to the global economy downturn, all the job placement agency are EXPANDING. so... lets just be nice to each other yea?

ahh.. i'm feeling so much better now, after letting off some steam here. i dont understand why people still have to be so mean to each other.i wont make a big fuss if u didnt step on my tail right? In the singaporean society, we practiced too much racism,biaseness,stereotyping,materialistic which makes us really really ugly. it's such a dissapointment to see big organisation or highly educated personnels following the trend and not being able to see things from the more justified direction.

had lunch with eugene today, we went to renew his driving license then he came over to fix my comp, so i'm a happy girl right now.. with a couple of new programs up and running. he bought me this singapore public transport guide cos i'm usually on the go for interviews now so he felt it's better for me to know how to get my way around instead of calling my friends up in the middle of nowhere to ask for directions. hee hee.. thanks dearie !!

i know i'm abit late but

HAPPY BIRTHDAY APRIL!!!!!!

opps , BELATED i mean. you're on Hiatus?? i hope u're reading this anyhow and come back soon k? we will miss you! hee hee...

Diamond >> errr..Brandis?! is that you?

2003-03-30T21:23:00.000-08:00

baby,u're all that i wan...

i came across these in an email from a friend. i really like it,have a read. maybe it'll inspire you like it did to me? =)

"Don't waste your time on people who are not willing to waste their time on you"

"Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you"

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch yours words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

thanks to all who've been giving me lotsa encouragement for the past week. it really meant alot to me and i totally appreciate it. Big Thank You to

April, Anne,Ben,*Sinner,Sei,Carol,hlmilk,pei,Melanie and everyone else.

my neighbour and good friend just completed their BMT..so they're gonna have a week's break while waiting for their posting. i've decided to entirely devote myself to spending good quality time with my friends. people that i've been neglecting/missing/avoiding ever since i got attached. i wanna get my social life back on, once again re-live the happy precious moments i once used to have with all my friends over coffee/dinner. just being myself..goofy,fun loving,laid back and happy.

striking a balance with all the priorities in ur life isnt easy at all. it comes with a hefty price and sacrifice. it doesnt come easy or cheap ya know. i'm so looking forward to hang out with all my old friends again. it's good to have some attention at times, the kinda attention that some people in my life has never been able to give to me cos they're too cropped up with their own stuff. maybe it's time they stop and listen to what i've got to say for a change? afterall we're just humans. we need to feel heard,needed,respected & loved.

i'm getting really sick and tired of the Sars & War thing going on.. reports of them are everywhere. you cant run and you cant hide. it's so depressing man. like what is the world coming to? an end is a new beginning to an end or perhaps a new beginning is an end of a beginning?

realised there has been a tremendous decline in the number of comments i receieve each day.. rem to leave ur comments k?? i love hearing what u got to say 'cept for some of cos. heehee.

"ren sheng zhong zui tong ku de liang jian shi ,
yi, deng bu dao you ai de ai qing
er, ji mo "

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2003-03-27T04:34:00.000-08:00

updates

oOoOoOo.... Is it just me or is it gettin Really HOT in here ?!? take a look at this ladies & gentlemen !! this is SO funni or rather low down childish !? highly amusing piece of material i wanna share with you all.

" pluse: F.u.c.k.ing shijia is a b.it.ch.Like to bing guys back to her house and have wild S.EX with them. very much into Blow job too "

wahaha... ohhhhhh i'm so scared !!so scared!!! dont expose me leh!!! ohhh.. dont go tell my mama!! *rofl* and what's with the B.I.T.C.H ??? Babe In Total Control Of Herself sounds perfectly in control to me. lol...

terry , sherie , *sinner has moved !!!!

i've added two new links as well. welcome Sepps !!! & Siying

urm, nothing interesting to share this couple of days. been staying home all day in front of my comp, besides it's not safe to go out to crowded places but bahhhh!!!! hey but yay! i've got classes tomm so i'm looking forward to see the girls again. got lotsa laundry piled up for me to iron, my room's gettin pretty messy,been a really really long time since i give my hair some good conditioning & treatment and my face some sea marine extracts treatment? probably i'll top it up with a little mani/pedicure and fruit salad / fondue at the end of the day?!? what do you girls use exactly to keep your well being? spend mega big bucks to get it done professionally every month or try to simply maintain it yourself on regular basis then once a very blue moon visit the professionals to get down to some pampering like i do?

i've got this close buddy of mine, she's really lucky man. her entire family is in the beauty industry. her cousin working in the beauty/slimming house , therefore she'll get 'professional consultation' every now and then and she get her brows done nicely every month free of charge at the comfort of her own home! hee hee. her auntie's a hairstylist, so she can get her hair done easily whenever she has a function to attend , rebonds her super long hair for a super mere cost !! cool huh??

2003-03-25T21:00:00.000-08:00

quotable quotes

i've gotten these quotes from Sarah's . fantastic site i tell ya. just to display a few of my personal favourites out of the lot :

Never argue with an idiot. They drag you down to their level and then beat you with experience

You! Off my planet!

Life's a bitch, then you die

Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity

East to the sea, west to the land, death to the bitch who touches my man!

I don't come with dice, so don't play with me

People create their own drama

I don't have a cow, so I don't need your bull!

A smile is a curve that can, Straighten out a lot of things.

Act your age and not your shoe size

I may be a cruel, heartless bitch, but I'm good at it.

Warning: I have an attitude and I know how to use it

Languid-Sexy....
You rock the messy hair and crisp white cotton
sheet. Your idea of bliss is a day spent in
bed with your lover. There is nothing wrong
with that, though some people like to leave the
bed at times. You're a total fox, even if you
are a hedonistic bum.

What's your brand of sexy?
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Pink:
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.

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Your Heart is Red

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2003-03-25T03:53:00.000-08:00

PLUSE

i just dont know why some people out just have to pretend to be all so "little miss perfect" or "mr perfect". bossing people around, telling others what to do and what not to do, names calling, making stories up. having these people or would i prefer to say this 'person' dropping by my blog everyday watching my every move and lashing out at me has been really an experience.

ya know what, i dont find you irritating or anything, as a matter of fact i do find you rather highly entertaining cos you're a joke you see? i look forward for ur two cents worth everyday when i check out my blog. it's amusing to see how imaginative you can get and at this low point of life for everybody with the war and bad economy & stuff.. u're of really good help, providing free entertainment.... all your actions/words for the past week have just displayed how shallow & low a person you are and how pathetic your life must be (probably your whole life has been a joke?) ... i bet everyone's really feeling sympathetic for you cos knowing u're far worst than us makes us feel better of ourselves.. dont ya think?

you're just so cute!! you know what, dont ever stop okay? cos i'm gonna miss ya comments if u ever stop. hello there!!!! PLUSE. yes i'm speaking to you. i guess you must be fuming mad right now (whhhooopppss???!), me talking about you. making you the 'cover story' of the day. must be ur wildest dream come true isnt it? well congratulations... !!! now everyone knows about you and your deeds on my tagboard. you ought to give me some credit ya know.. i'm giving you free publicity here. maybe you could leave ur details behind so the rest of the guys could in contact with you yar?

i've given you lotsa chances to just leave my space alone and leave quietly however you just keep asking for more. honestly speaking, whatever you've said to me doesnt mean anything to me cos i know who i am and what's good for me. besides, u're a really bad liar.. you blow things out of proportion and exaggerate way too much. of course no one's gonna believe whatever u've said.. get it?

it's never your call to boss me around and start calling people names cos just who do you think you are? fancy walking into someone's territory and start dissing everyone off just like that? i'm no push over so get that in mind. the truth is , all ur vulgar comments are a joke. it has totally no effect on me, it doesnt make me feel any miserable nor do i feel any lesser of myself. best of all.. it doesnt kill me. so why are you making your life miserable and going thru the pain and effort to do this to urself? if ya despise me so so so much, why are you even here in my blog and you still keep coming back ? why are you even reading all these man? contridicting isnt it? .. i've told you didnt i ? you're a joke.

your main intention's probably just to make my life miserable & see me break down and cry someday, but ya know what ?... look around pluse!! ... do i look as if i'm in a miserable state or even unhappy?? so what else are you trying to prove pluse? you've failed terribly & miserably . i'm sorry.. go on.stop embarrassing urself here or make urself a laughing stock...go learn to have a life.

p.s: quit being so mean to others, probably they'll start to be nice to you yea? oh yea,, i believe i dont quite know you that well..probably you shld address me as burn` . good luck..

2003-03-23T20:35:00.000-08:00

B.i.n.g.o

caught "just married" on friday with eugene at westmall . pretty funny show , kinda depressing too cos they just cant seem to get things right. in the words of eugene " watch until pekchek and gek sim" hee hee.. but at least it was a happy ending (oops!?) and my dear was actually touched & he sobbed! aww.. i was kinda sobbing as well myself. hehe.. probably e show described our relationship?? hell i dont know but it was good. so we laughed at each other at the end of the day.

i went for another interview in town on sat morning, very nice looking office lovely working environment , hopefully i get the job? *cross fingers* eugene was really sweet to accompany to the interview... help take care of my stuff for me . after lunch , we went to suntec for the study in australia fair. took lotsa propectus and left. very cramped and crowded. it's impossible to ask questions there and the security's pretty tight too. went back to his place to leave our bags before heading out for dinner but my eyes was glued to the tv set. heheh miss universe singapore , we ended up having instant noodle with his brother and family. good thing bernice wong won.. think she's really the most suitable girl among the pack. then we watched temptation island uncut .. before falling asleep on the floor with the tv still on channelnewsasia.

with the war going, think everyone's only interested in channel news asia or cnn.. at least that's what happening over at his place.. hee news all day long. spent the entire sunday afternoon doing research on the australia universities on relevant courses and working out the course fees and stuff. he was supposed to study for his exam but we ended playing games ..tic tac toe,bingo, talking abt renovation works , furniture,room arrangemen & stuff all the way till dinner time. but it was fun.our first truly enjoyable weekend together in a long time. happy 2 months baby!

more interviews lined up this week. more new layouts from our fellow bloggers and more going on hiatus.

p.s: Her World magazine for april is a pretty good buy!

2003-03-20T19:27:00.000-08:00

Loreal

was asked if i wanna work at Loreal's warehouse office in jurong port road for two days (thurs & fri), so i tot why not? it's only 2 days and i'll have a little income coming in during this war season. man i've never seen so many cosmetics in my whole life. imagine whole warehouse full of shu uemura,lancome,biotherm,hair gels,hair dyes.... tempting isnt it? hee hee. the people in the office are pretty friendly. it's good to work in such a industry cos it doesnt matter if ur hair's blonde or brightly dyed and best of all you get staff discount!! *sniggle* been doing their tax invoices and picking ticket all day, my fingers are sore already! i got to see all the products in the cost price and retail price.. haha.. trust me , they are definately profiting!!! =P

then as i was about to dock off , the lady told me that their HRM made a mistake , they only need help for a day not two. sheesh..what a bummer. but on a happier note, i got myself a couple of interview scheduled in for sat and mon. so i'm feeling rather hopeful. so much so for job hunting during war season.

Study In Australia 2003 Exhibition going on at suntec concourse level 3 this weekend. i'm gonna drop by to enquire more about further studies.

Has been an extremely emotionally taxing 2 weeks for me and eugene. we've been going through so much lately, at times we feel that letting each other go is the best solution? the many differences and conflicts that we have unresolved and failed attempts to talk things thru just wears us off more each time. but we're alright now, back onto the highway . yes, we finally came up with solutions. feeling un-stressed now . =)

oh and i did the strawberry fondue the other day.. hehe yea i used the "water bath" method if tat's what u guys call it. hee.. chocolate melted perfectly but i had serious trouble trying to keep the chocolate melted & warm. it cools down extremely fast so the consistency hardens back in a short while but it tasted great. thanks for all the advice guys!! u guys are awesome man!

visited : Idiot kinda cute site ?

2003-03-18T20:52:00.000-08:00

family day

for the first time in many years, my house was filled with relatives. had a really nice time with my relatives.my 2 cousins, my two little hyperactive niece and nephew , my 6th uncle , my 1st aunt came over to my place. it's hard to imagine that i've not seen my uncle for like nearly 10years and now his daughter is like me.. .. tall ! my aunt cooked asam fish and prawns for lunch yesterday. definately one of a kind in singapore.. you can never taste the same thing here!! traditional malaysian housewife dish! yummylicious....oh and now.. she's preparing curry prawns for me. *evil laugh* i'm such a lucky girl.

went over to carrefour for groceries shopping again... guess what i bought? lipgloss again! i'm a lipgloss fan... what to do? i bought the latest maybelline lipgloss in Rose? ahh it's a very light pink colour which looks absolutely sweet on fair skin girls! hee.. not bad for a gloss that cost only $14.90??

i bought some strawberries as well, gonna try to make a fruit fondue either today or tomm.. but can anyone teach me how to melt the chocolate without overcooking it?

visited : Nikki , May , Kristine !! Yuko has a new layout!! Mandee's new layout is so beautiful in purple!! my fave colour!!!

these Girls ROCKS!!!!!

2003-03-17T03:08:00.000-08:00

oh look!

got my hair highlighted in red streaks over the weekend.. looks pretty alright i guess. thanks to my personal hairstylist *drumroll* eugene ang! hehe. i didnt know he's so talented? hiaks.

i'm running a fever again . been literally sick every weekend for the past month. my immune system's going downhill and my family's getting rather frustrated over the fact that i cant seem to recover well fully.and just because i'm always sick, i've been missing out on all the great food. i hate antibotics and painkillers now. hate them real bad. beginning to have a phobia for medication. so damn sickening.

looking at the tagboard messages, i'm not gonna say anything about those kinda people. not gonna give them any attention, just gonna ignore them. people have eyes to see who are the real culprits making a din over at my space here. like what sherie said, they're just plain jealous of me. =)

Carol!!! what happened to your blog? i cannot view! need password?! how? *panic*

2003-03-14T17:44:00.000-08:00

freaking stalker

i figured that there's really some crazy nutcase out there whose seeking for attention BADLY. poor baby. instead of looking for people to call his/her own FRIENDS and have a life... he/she would prefer to drop by my blog and leave his/her two cents worth on my taggy. yes yes, i'm sure she'll/he'll not hesitate to "praise" me more after i've "introduced" him/her to all you guys. ladies and gentlemen , let's give out warmest welcome to our new friend. (p.s : perhaps u cld give a little intro abt urself yea? sweetie? )

i really like the new layouts you guys have. april , anne , christine , ben .

visited May . she has an awesome j.lo layout!

2003-03-13T23:14:00.000-08:00

home sweet home!!!

hey guys, i'm back from my trip. got lotsa things to share but it's just too damn much to share, anyway i fell horribly sick on my road trip there. was fighting with high fever and throat infection for 2 days before i got myself an injection right in the butt. (ouch!) and lotsa painkillers and antibotics. *shrugs*

i'm feeling a whole lot much better now and i didnt buy much even though they're having mega sales. but i got myself a nice eyebrow trimming session at shu uemura in kuala lumpur and a nice shirt for eugene.

i'll fill you guys in more later. my whole body's aching from the whole road trip... have a nice weekend people. boy.. i'm just glad to be home!

2003-03-06T22:42:00.000-08:00

gone to malaysia for a week

well, i'm gonna be away for a week or less guys. dont expect much action around here for the next few days, unless i can get hold of a computer at my relative's place which is highly possible. heehee... i've more or less done packing for this road trip, gonna go for an interview in orchard, have a good dinner with eugene and i'll be off in the wee hours of saturday morning.

so pissed off with my mom, i was trying so hard to get to activate my auto roaming cos i'll be expecting lotsa calls from the respective employers and agencies (and of cos i wanna keep in contact with eugene) *smirk*.. but she has no idea what i'm talking and she just turned me down flat!!! " aiyah i've no idea what u're talking about, i'm off to makan now. bye! " then the line went engaged. WAHLUA!!!! *collapse*

hlmilk>> i dun really have a button. probably you could take this?

2003-03-05T22:19:00.000-08:00

hiatus fever?

kinda sad cos lotsa bloggers have been going on hiatus for the couple of weeks. anne,celine,christine,kelly,bessie..etc.. gonna miss ya all?! hope u all come back soon yea?!

~~gonna go interview later,~~ but i'm feeling really lazy . must be the damn weather. not gonna have galileo classes for 2 weeks. what the hell. the school's wasting lotsa time man. argh~

anyways, i'm finally going back to malaysia to visit my relatives over the weekend. so wont be having much action here for a couple of days guys. no idea when i'll be coming back from my short holiday over to malaysia with my folks to visit my relatives. but i'm sure excited about it. been almost 2yrs. all my aunties and uncles are like so happy when they heard the news. now they're all busy preparing to welcome us back 'home'... so cute! =) but i'm gonna miss eugene so much. my first weekend away from him... sigh.

i have lotsa unresolved matters here in singapore...hmm i've no idea how people gonna contact me when i'm on the road. especially my job applications.whahaha.for once.. probably i'll just ditch all i have and rock on? hehe.. i've no idea what i'm typing now. hee..

~~better go get ready now. i'm late.... as usual.~~ stayed home surfing around for shopping malls in kuala lumpur. i'm doing my research now so i could just charge up to the boutiques when i'm there. HEE HEE!! mid valley megamall looks cool. hehe it has all the boutiques there, even a leonard drake skin spa centre there! woohoo.. i think i'll be going for a facial there. my skin's breaking out these days and i have no idea how to take care of it! HELP!?!?!

woohoo.. dont forget to catch the 2hr special american idol tonight guys! who's gonna win!?who's gonna win??

listening : Jennifer Lopez - All I Have

2003-03-03T01:41:00.000-08:00

a clown

Yuko's devon aoki layout rocks!!
linked Yanz & hlmilk
visited val & nick

the gathering with my classmates was great. i missed them all so much! kinda sad cos shermeen had a fight with her bf so she was kinda distracted and suhana couldnt make it. went for curry fish head at seah street..pretty tasty i would say but the service suxx big time. then we went for coffee at burlington square after dinner.very windy place i would say. hehe.. lotsa tourists around. had a really great time catching up with the girls. in the meantime, i think i was too caught up with my conversations with the girls i kinda neglected eugene who was sitting quietly beside me flipping thru his new mobile phone instruction manual.

we all decided to go embargo for drinks but the place was packed. soccer night i guess. then we walked all the way to clarke quay. kinda too ah beng and ah lian for all of us. hehe.. all those youngsters chiongsters..technokias.funny looking kids with blonde hair and bad sense of dressing holding cigarettes and chewing gum. hehe.. we settled for some weird pub called pier 69 .. with the stupid lousy techno dj spinning in the background. i was having a throbbing headache by then . alice picked up $27 bucks on the floor.. so our drinks were paid for that night. hehe!! lucky!

went to eugene's uncle place at sengkang on sunday. lotsa relatives there.. i was just sitting around ~~rotting~~ looking at them gamble. had steamboat dinner then we went home. by the end of the day i was running a fever while waiting for bus express502 at hougang. i nearly killed myself when flagging the bus. i missed a step and sprained my ankle. shocking everyone, the bus uncle, eugene, ppl at the bus stop. i've made a fool out of myself. so embarrassing.

celine>> oh come on.. i'm not as sweet as you think lah. i'm more of a sassy girl than sweet. lol

ash>> *hi5*!! good that u're enjoying ur spoon right now! glad that u agreed with me too. hehe.. probably we've been thru e same things at a tender age yar? hehe..!! happy rules!

2003-02-28T23:50:00.000-08:00

hello.. weekend!

m moved again!! visit her at her blogspot page now with awesome new layout from Mizgraphics!!

i gave eugene another surprise last night. dropped a card in his bag...heehee he tot i threw rubbish into his bag. guess he liked the little inexpensive surprise i gave him. hee *another victory pose*

met up with calvin and jaime for movie at ps. as usual they kept us waiting for so long... we all ended up missing the first part of the show "Maid in Manhattan". so pissed with them cos it's like they're not even sorry or anything and i've been dying to catch that show! so i was kinda talking sarcastically to them when they asked me how i was doing or whether i've got a job already . i replied " job? nah.. i am a tai tai.. i'm born with a silver spoon in my mouth. i dun hafta work one, my parents give me enough each month " .. which none of the mentioned is true. i am the youngest daughter of a middle class family and i've not gotten allowance from my folks since my last O'level paper when i was 16. probably a wooden spoon but never silver. neither do i want to be a tai tai cos i'm a workaholic.. i work hard i play hard.but hey, if i marry a rich guy.. haha i'm still gonna be a "workaholic".. shopping 24/7, clearing out the shelves of Gucci and LV. having high tea with my "associates" and business meeting with my personal manicurist and hairstylist. wahah. hee good idea girls? it's just that i dont feel that i need to explain myself every single time to anyone cos for one thing... how do u know whether they genuinely care for you? for all i know.. majority of the ppl are just asking for the sake of asking. they dont care whether you have a job.. they dont care if you've got money to eat. Bottom line is : they just dont care for you, so why bother to tell?

the very last thing i need from someone now is to nag at me, laugh at me and pass down a stereotyping judgement on me "shijia is a slacker, she's never gonna make it." cos hello!? it's my life ya know. i run it the way i like it. if i cant freaking have 3 months break in my life to think things over and recharge myself... it's your problem .. not mine. i need not explain to anyone at anytime . i'm not asking money from you anyway. besides i'm been working the whole time when u guys were still schooling and u guys had Holidays. i was studying full time with only 2 weeks holidays in a year for christ sake man... give the man a break. your parents' loaded , they can fund you for education but my folks cant. see the difference?

sometimes i just wish human will be more self contented & quit whining . cos you never know what you have until you lose them.so why not treasure them now and make the best outtha it ? at least you have it ya know. maybe there's billions of ppl out dying to have what you have now. it's tough enough just to keep what you have now, not to even mention new achievements. . you think the more you have means quality living? well, in my opinion ..the more you have , the more you lose. it's all about striking a balance and laying out your priorities in life.

i'm ranting too much now. have a great weekend guys. gonna have dinner & coffee with my friends today. i'm a happy person.

2003-02-27T21:50:00.000-08:00

plain lazy

Ash has moved with a really neat layout! love it!

lunch was good yesterday. eugene was so damn surprised that i cooked lunch .. hehe. i finally surprise him sucessfully. *victory pose* finally done with my resume and stuff.... feeling damn lazy with the whole blogger thing.giving me problems that i cant fix? got no motivation to do a new layout even though i freaking sick of this current look. hehe.. so dull.

i've got class later on. well for those getting their results today. GOOD LUCK. trust me.. u'll need it. =P

pei>> cook for you?? sure!! if you dont mind my bad cooking that is..! hehe...

celine>> sweet meh? alright lah.. it's just cooking simple dishes. i think baking is more tedious leh. heheh..

2003-02-26T21:15:00.000-08:00

there's some problem with my blogger. i cant view my latest entries at all. i'm stuck at feb 20. .. therefore i cant view any of the comments ...grrr.. i've got no mood for all these nonsense. i'm off to cook lunch for eugene now.

2003-02-24T21:58:00.000-08:00

Links, Links and more links!

Celine has moved with a new layout! give her some loving!!! =)

i didnt know it could be so costly just to get ur passport done. a freaking good 70bucks if you pay by Cash and 60bucks if you pay by Nets. what is this crappy logic? having to pay more if you gonna pay cash. ahh yes.. the goverment's way of Educating people of Republic of Singapore to become a "Cashless Society". look at the number of people unemployed , the country's no lack of money, why still penalise the poor barely making it day to day commoners? i cant help it but to just say it's just damn Sickening/Disgusting. it's a Pay-And-Pay country. Period.

I couldnt have imagined myself and my other half walking down bugis street , even stopping by the temple to pray . never in my wildest dream but it all happened yesterday. But of course eugene waited outside the temple for me. he's catholic but at least he's totally fine with me stopping by the temple. i'm not a very buddhist person, it's not that i dont believe or anything,it's just that i dont usually abide the rules. if one were to ask me what kinda religion i'm in.. i will probaby answer 'free thinker' cos i still eat beef and do everything as and when i wish ( eg: attend bible studies,listen to christian songs,read the bible for cultural understanding). my folks are fine with it cos i still show my respects and stuff whenever there's big occasions.

i finally eased my craving for Rochor Beancurd yesterday , been a long time since i last went selegie for beancurd and i miss the chinese food & chicken rice there. i rem i used to pop by selegie for dinner every friday with Bernard. after that we'll both walk around town aimlessly till late. haha those were the days that i spent my days bickering with him over nothings (sometimes) just for fun and of course those were the 'carefree' days. two very single persons finding company in each other. well right now, we're both blissfully (i hope/think) attached to our respective partners.keke.. speaking of which, i've not seen that fellow around for ages. if u're reading this, probably we shld go jalan jalan one of these day yea? how's ur housewarming plans coming along?

my throat's still hurting. thanks all for the recommendations.. will try out one by one.

i miss my friends. i really do

Visited :

Raymond

Mel has beautiful new layout!

Frida's new layout rocks!

Yuko

MistKron's very futuristic looking layout surely kick ass!

hlmilk has the cutest layout! i love it x 1000 !!!

Kristine

Calani

Mandee

2003-02-23T10:58:00.000-08:00

slit open my throat and let me die...

my throat's still hurting like hell till now.. or rather it's hurting even more! it's driving me nuts and i really wonder how am i gonna sleep in peace tonight with the throbbing pain down my throat everytime i try to swallow . it was actually better last night , eugene made me take a lozenge before i went to bed and i had quite a peaceful night's rest until my supper just now. all my fault, unable to resist temptations of heaty food.. cheese prata and dinosaur (ice milo with milo powder on top).. .. -roar-

the weekend just flew past like a snap of a finger.. went over to his place to surprise him. he was preparing to cook dinner for me when i got there ...so sweet? hehe well. he's not much of a cook so he ended up with a fail attempt to whip up something. hmm think he got really upset ..probably he didnt want to dissapoint me or something. hmm? had supper at Brown Box at serangoon gardens together with calvin and his gf. and they're wearing this very cute couple Levis Tshirt!!!! they just look so so cute together..especially in that shirt! hehe matching tshirts ,matching rings! so envious!! =)

stayed home all day watching him sleep and snore while watching tv and reading magazines until our faithful supper meeting with calvin and his gf again at jalan kayu just now.damn the dinosaur and cheese prata.. grrr.. ahh my throat..

gonna have breakfast with him later then will be going down to renew his passport. good thing he's having his one week term break..hehe.

2003-02-21T21:40:00.000-08:00

my throat is killing me... ahhhhh!!!

does anybody know of a better remedy to cure a persisting sore throat other than drinking lotsa water and sucking on lozenges that doesnt work? my sore throat is killing me , i cant even sleep at night because of the pain. sigh.

had lunch with cheekoon yesterday afternoon...he has lost quite alot of weight , been exercising and pigging out less i reckon. well, ever since i got attached , he has lost a 'partner in crime' to pig out with..haha. looking good boy! keep it up!!

went back to school for the first time in nearly 6months. so many changes around the campus, lotsa new staff . felt really good to see my lecturers again. the galileo class went pretty smooth even though i missed the first lesson. everyone was so shocked to see me again.. the common reaction i got from ppl was " Wow! Yo!!! You're finally back!! hehehe..! " i'm so surprised to see my secondary school classmate working in my school office. small world after all huh? people you think u'll never ever bump into will just pop up somewhere somehow in between... like as if it's haunting you.

Met up with eugene dear after my lesson , went to the esplanade.. there was this public jazz band performance and choral singing. really cool.. we caught "Marrying the Mafia".. the latest korean show on the block? hehe.. it's by far one of the most enjoyable and funniest show i've watched this year. pure entertainment and comedy with touching bits.

got this really really really lengthy email from eugene dear at 6am in the morning. what can i say? it's just bring tears to my eyes.i'm so happy he wrote that email, so touched by everything he has done and i count myself really damn lucky to have someone like him.

it's a really tough period now for many. recession,retrenchment,unemployment,debts,debts,and more debts,exams,study week, tests,projects,army,unable to get jobs,rising expenses,fare hikes,and war.Let's all stand strong and support each other with love, help one and other out?

think i shld get going , really wanna do something special for him. Give darling a surprise?

2003-02-20T01:12:00.000-08:00

dont know why

no idea why , but i've suddenly lost the interest in blogging .

p/s: i'll hafta thank Pei a million for helping me with my tagboard!!! thanks alot sweetieeee!!!!! *Hugs* now the tagboard looks soooo much better dont ya think so?

2003-02-18T08:26:00.000-08:00

haloscan's still down

been two days already and haloscan's still down.i wonder what's wrong?? meantime , i've added in tagboard ( i know it looks damn ugly) . feel free to drop ur comments k?

icq2go is down too.. think i'll be "offline" for some time now. Roar!!!

p/s: can anyone tell me how to make the tagboard text box look smaller? .. i suxx at all these man.

2003-02-17T11:57:00.000-08:00

someone jumped from the building

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i was still in bed when my mom called me on my mobile , she specifically instructed me to take the lift instead of the stairs if i were to go out today. she was sounding as if she was disturbed or something, when i probed further she just snapped " just do what i told you, it's best not for you to look out downstairs or even leave the house, and no more late nights for you. dont walk on the grass either k? " ... her instructions left me all puzzled . i got out of bed and i look out of my window.. " oh my gawd!?!? what happened?! " half the carpark downstairs was being sealed up by the police, police car dead silence , onlookers looking from afar..

my mom called again in the afternoon to make sure i was ok , i asked her what has happened... " someone jumped from the building and when i took the stairs down just now , i saw 'it' there lying on the grass... think it's one of our neighbours upstairs." come to think of it, i've been living here for nearly 20 years , nothing of such things has ever happened in my estate. really sad and that kinda frightened me quite a bit.

when i was talking about it to eugene, he was like asking " didnt you hear anything at all?.. didnt hear loud falling noise or anything?" he got me started on hallucinating and stuff.. evil evil boyfriend!! but he came over, bought me dinner and kept me company while studying for his test. like right now, he's studying in the living while i'm here blogging away. heh..

enough of death. well on a happier note, i visited tons of people today and all their sites are just so beautifully done! ( i wish i could be half as talaneted as them, seriously! ) drop them some loving too yar?

Shari , Viki , Kris , Mimi , Kristine , envy-us , Calani , Crystal , Hayley , Grace has a new layout !

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is this really me?**beware, this is a very long entry**

havent been updating much on my blog lately. been rather busy with nothing in particular. just freaking sending my resumes out each day and surfing around for courses and stuff....bahhh. i'm fully aware that this place needs a new skin and i'll do something about it. at least before i get myself a full time job.

so how did valentine's day turn out for everyone??? i think most of you guys really enjoyed yourselves.... romantic dinner dates, exchanging of presents and stuff.. mmmmmm... =) mine wasnt that bad either, he came by my place to surprise me ..then we had dinner at Pivdorf. Lotsa people therefore slow service but we're alright with it. we caught " Catch Me If You Can " , Great Show !! Storyline is fantastic man!! took NR5 back to my place , had breakfast at the market .Eugene's pretty happy with the gift i got for him and he loves the card... so i'm pretty contented.

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Got this Quiz Link from Celine , hmm is this really me? it sounds like 80% me.. i dont have much friends probably cos i aint having a normal young adult life like most ppl my age. but no matter what , i'm still a true friend and it seriously doesnt bother me if i have just a few friends or lotsa friends cos i dont really care about the statistics.

Saturday

Slept the whole saturday afternoon away at eugene's place.i promised his mum i'll go over his place for steamboat dinner with his family. the worst is that he lives so freaking far from my place and it's so inconvenient to travel thru and fro every single time. it's physically taxing but it's kinda good for me cos i know no one's gonna recognise me when i'm over at his neighbourhood. so i feel totally at ease , at least i know i wont bump into my relatives or something. both of us woke up in the late afternoon , i got dragged to the nearby mall to buy 4d for his family by him and we ended up taking a break at coffeebean. oh yea.. his mom won $250 on 4d that night by the way. lucky huh? -smiles-

steamboat dinner was great. after dinner, calvin & his gf , me and eugene went down to the mall again for coffee. 2 cups of pure chocolate ice blended for me in a day. haha...sinful me. i still recall myself staring at the ring both calvin and his gf are wearing during dinner. apparently , calvin got his gf a white gold wedding band & a dozen of blue roses for v-day. oh my gawd!? hey, i'll hafta admit. i truely jealous and envious at the same time.

i'm feeling so bad cos i couldnt meet up with bessie over the weekend. i miss her and i know there's alot for us to talk about ..

Sunday

my dear eugene is stressing over his 4 tests this week. he hasnt been sleeping well for the past 2 weeks..so i tot of cheering him up abit by buying dinner over to his hall for him. well that's the only thing i can do on my part for him... it's not as if i can study on his behalf.. hehe.. well it gave me chance to see how his hostel looked like. i'm so impressed with myself , i never knew i could just watch him study for a few hours without disturbing him after dinner. i just did my stuff quietly on his pc .. and he's just so sweet. he still insisted on sending me back home.

i spoke to bessie for over 3 hours on the phone.. she's leaving for melbourne again tomm. lotsa things gonna change once you board the plane but make sure u treat urself good yea?? i'll see ya soon. meantime , email me yea?

Monday

gonna watch the premier of "Chicago " at Shaw towers today and my dearie suprised me again by popping by my place to pick me up. well , what can i say about the show?.. erm..it's very "Broadway" & " Moulin Rougue " .. if you have no problem with those singing and dancing , you'll definately enjoy the show. and i'm very surprised how skinny renee zellweger look now!! so bony!!! but one thing for sure is that i'm gonna buy the soundtrack... the songs they sang are just so catchy!!!

my dearie's burning midnight oil now to study for his test later in the morning , i'm pretty worried for him that's why i cant get to sleep and thus me typing this very long entry now. lol...

I'm dying to catch " Maid In Manhattan " . it seems to be a really nice romantic story.. hehe hopefully i'll be able to catch it this weekend. On a happier note, he's having his one week break from school next week, and he was suggesting we take a short holiday together. -beams- i think i'll be happy even if it's sentosa! =D

Visited : Khimmy & Riverwind

2003-02-13T12:35:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day Everybody!!!

it's 4.30am in the morning and i'm not even half done with the card. oh no!? Bessie's coming down to Singapore in the morning and i've a class at 4pm. doh!!!!

well , i better get back to his card now.... have fun you guys! =)

2003-02-13T01:02:00.000-08:00

hot chick

caught the ' hot chick' with eugene on tuesday after i went to do my eyebrows at wom-b. it's always good to have a regular place and a regular artist to do your brows? at least they will know how you want your brows to be done without having you to remind them. lower risk of dissapointment? hehe..

anyways, the show was hilarious man. very nice show... one of the actresses has a bit of 'britney spears' look. wahaha.. good show, go catch it. seems like many bloggers are bumping into each other more often nowadays? eh how come no one has ever bump into me yet?

went scouting for a more reasonably priced restaurant with eugene for v-day. we settled for Pivdorf at Liang Seah Street ( e stretch of cafe/restaurants opp parco bugis) i used to dine at Pivdorf years ago and they're having a very reasonably priced v-day dinner promo.. hmm why not? For those who prefer Italian , probably you could try Pranzo . It's just situated opposite Pivdorf. Their V-day dinner menu is rather tempting and economically priced too. oh yea.. the ambience is good too. Check out their site here

and those Beef noodles lovers , you could also try Lai Lai Beef noodles just beside Pranzo. i had my dinner there last night. i would say the beef noodle's rather tasty man!!! i'm definately going back for more and their service is good!!!

i suddenly have to attend galileo classes for twice a week now. so sudden. dammnit and the first lesson commences tomm! argh..

i gottha rush of out the house now , still got some last min present to wrap.. and the card.. ohhhhh the card!!!

p.s: the florist just delivered a bouquet of pink roses from eugene to my place. hehe.. and they're BEAUTIFUL!!!! -blush-

2003-02-10T00:12:00.000-08:00

running a fever

Anne has moved! give her your support!

Added Sei . welcome!!!!

Visited Shari ,

havent been blogging much lately, i've got tons to say but i'm just too lazy to bitch about it. probably the more i talk about it , the more it hurts?

had a movie marathon session with my dear @ jurong point on friday.we caught "They" ( it sucks big time, watch at ur own risk!) and "Final Destination 2" . it's a really good gross show. enjoyed it...

then on saturday i had my gathering with my primary schoolmates again. went over to jiahao's place to 'bai nian' . played 3 hours of monopoly on his playstation , fiddled with his keyboard , pizza hut dinner , another 4 hours of ktv at his living room which was really cool cos my friends can really sing man! =) had supper with jiahao and zikai near my place & we chatted alot. about my relationship , v-day , further gathering plans and stuff.

me and eugene were both pretty unhappy with each other that night cos of probably some miscommunication? he was jealous that i went to have supper with 2 guys and stuff like that. he's just being so sensitive about the whole issue and one thing led to another. we ended up arguing bitterly over something so stupid i feel. that marks our first official argument... what a day.

feeling so extremely lousy when i woke up yesterday, taking some time away from each other to sort out our emotionals. i miss him loads though and i wished so badly that we could be ending the stupid fight right at that instant instead of punishing each other by having a silent war. i met up with suhana and gang in cityhall. long time since i saw them... somehow or rather they were all expecting to meet this 'mysterious guy' whom i've been dating. sorry to disspoint the gang , he didnt show up.. i didnt expect him to anyway. seeing suhana and gang really cheered me up. especially suhana, we have so much to tell each other and i'll be laughing non stop with her.

we met up with liwei at the esplanade too. he brought us to the rooftop terrace. it's such a nice place!!! oh yea, he's gonna start woking at the esplanade library cafe this week. i'm definately gonna hang out there more often now! and liwei looks so adorable and boyish with his hair down! i could hardly recognise him!! =)

i kinda vented my frustration by shopping crazily yesterday. we all had a shopping spree yesterday!! look at the damage caused to my atm card! i'm gonna hold eugene totally responsible for making feel so upset. -evil grin-

i bought a new pair of black heels (finally!) , black top , red cardigan , black suede bag , his v-day present

he finally gave in to me and apologized to me by nightfall and we had a good talk about all the incidents and stuff. i'm so glad we're fine now cos it has been hell for the both of us this weekend. i know how much i mean to him right now and he cant do without me.. neither can i .

i think i got myself too upset over the weekend , running a fever right now. feel so cold , weak and hungry now. gonna go cook porridge right now , pop a pill then head back to bed again.

2003-02-06T23:10:00.000-08:00

how poor are you?

i got this email from a friend. nice one. take a read.

One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people can be. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.

On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?" "It was great, Dad." "Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked. "Oh Yeah" said the son. "So what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father. The son answered, "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end.
We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night.Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole
horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy our food, but they grow theirs. We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."

With this the boy's father was speechless. Then his son added, "Thanks dad for showing me how poor we are."

**Too many times we forget what we have and concentrate on what we don't have. What is one person's worthless object is another's
prize possession. It is all based on one's perspective. Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for all the bounty
we have, instead of worrying about wanting more. Take joy in all you have, especially your friends. Pass this message on.

Melanie is back with a new url. New Year , Fresh Start , New Layout!

2003-02-04T02:00:00.000-08:00

holidays no more...uh oh!

so how' s the new year celebration for you guys huh? hope everyone's still feeling happy and healthy after the long weekend of good (heaty) goodies and gambling session. =)

there's nothing much for me to rant about though. just lotsa "meeting new people" (aka his family/relatives) . spent most of my time with eugene , visiting his relatives which naturally scored me 12 more angpows =) , watching them gamble , midnight movies . all of us went to catch " cat & mouse " the show starring andy lau and cecilia chung.. totally lame show. i fell asleep halfway with eugene laughing happily away at the show beside me. -doh- first time falling asleep while watching movie. i cannot believe it.

good thing one of his relatives just live next to my block. but it's scary man! i cld inside my room from their flat !! *jaws drop* heh..
had dinner with calvin's folks and his gf @ marche last night. then eugene and i decided to take a walk down at the river angpow thingy @ ms.. packed like sardines. he got pretty jealous when he heard hanwei calling me and my ex bf smsing me. opps... so sensitive eh??! bought my fave dragon beard's candy then walked over to esplanade. he suggested we have a drink at harrys even though he's pretty low on cash. Live Latin Jazz Band playing... they are GOOD!!! he just wanted to cheer me up cos i've been a little down since morning... heh=) we're okay after that. hee but i got so tired that i dozed off while he was counting his angpow money on the other line back at his hall. .. =O

i told my sister and mom about me being attached. they dont believe me at all... but after a while they realised that i'm not kidding at all. hehe.. think they're still in shock. shermeen was screaming over the phone when i told her about it.. so funni. hah.. then we bumped into suhana at citylink.. she's pretty shocked by the big news too. doh... what's up with everyone??!!?? i miss you guys by the way. we shall meet up for coffee this week k???

-takes a call-

hmm?? okay i gottha go .. my super sweet bf is right below my block waiting for me to go have dinner with him. hmmm another surprise visit from him. =) ....later guys.

visited : Kristine

2003-01-31T00:25:00.000-08:00

gong xi fa cai! happy chinese new year people!!!!!!

Well, its the time of the year again. the time which makes those people who are fortunate feel more fortunate and those people who are lonely feel even more lonelier. For the first time in many years , i'm feeling really excited about celebrating chinese new year.

Feeling real fortunate this year , being surrounded by my loved ones. No doubt each year's celebration is not as great as the year before... celebrations within the family became simplier & simplier and angpow money from my folks decreasing each year. surprisingly, i'm actually enjoying the simplicity of the whole event.

we threw a mini celebration for jamie's 22nd bday last night. had a couple of drinks at Harrys @ esplanade then Ktv at Chinatown. we took lotsa pictures... will put it up later. i totally enjoyed myself at Harrys. Live band and stuff... when the band played 'Hotel California' ..oh my god, i went crazy man. it sound so fantastic!! suddenly i felt really really lucky and blissed. having my friends ard me , my beloved bf eugene doing such a good job taking care of & i still get very surprised by the things he will do for me each time i see him ( eg : he helped me buckled up my safety belt everytime we ride a car, i felt like a kid all the sudden.. lost my capablities to protect and take care of myself ) , spending time with my family & being able to just sit down at that place enjoying the music over a glass of shirley temple... - smiles -

just done helping my mom prepare the food for steamboat dinner later. so excited , long time since i ate steamboat.besides it's a really good weather to eat steamboat today. hehe been raining since morning yar? hee hee. my neighbour hanwei is out from camp too. gonna pop by his place later. wanna see how he look like BOTAK.

probably wont have much chance to blog this couple of days so have fun you guys!! i might be back with a new layout after the new yr?!? perhaps perhaps perhaps ...

xin fu !! xin fu !! xin fu !!

2003-01-29T22:26:00.000-08:00

good email. take a look!

"Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some five balls in the air. You name them - work, family, health, friends and spirit and you're keeping all of these in the air. "

You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back.

But the other four balls - family, health, friends and spirit - are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered.
They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life.
How?

* Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special.

* Don't set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you.

* Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as they would your life, for without them, life is meaningless.

* Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all days of your life.

* Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.

* Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect. It is this fragile thread that binds us together.

* Don't be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

* Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find time. The quickest way to receive love is to give; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

* Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been, but also where you are going.

* Don't forget, a person's greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated.

* Don't be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless, a treasure you can always carry easily.

* Don't use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved. Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.

2003-01-28T00:23:00.000-08:00

zero , one , two , three

me : " eh dear, you definately have to buy 4d this weekend. i'm sure it'll come out." 0123 " .. sure win! "

eugene : -smiles- " hmm really?? why is it so? why 0123 ? "

me : " because it's january 23rd. it's a Big Day ya know?? "

eugene : " ohhh!!! k , i'll go buy that number. "

0123 came out 3rd prize on sunday night !!!!!! guess what?... we didnt buy. i just lost my chance of being $1000 richer. damnnit. Sighz. i went berserk. =P it's not meant to be my money i guess.

i got back my photos, i'm really upset cos the photos didnt turn out clear. think there's something wrong with my camera cos it's really funny how the pictures turned out. eugene says it has something to do with my camera shutter. it's too slow .. so what am i to do now? i kinda like wasted the roll of film , the photo processing money , the precious shots taken ( the reunion dinner, the pri sch gathering , embargo/esplanade shots with bessie ) and i probably have to fork out the camera repair fees? argh.. down on my luck.

on a happier note , eugene's very sweet. he gave me a surprise visit on sunday at my place ... hehe. all along i tot he was still sleeping at home. sneaky fellow!

i went over to my cousin's place to make peanut cookies yesterday afternoon. had lotsa fun. cookies tasted pretty good too!! =) my mom specially packed one box of cookies for eugene.hehe... i'm gonna surprise him with that. then i had the chance to talk to my niece who's currently in pri 2. we were talking about cartoons and she's powerpuff girls fanatic.

met up with cheekoon for dinner @ west mall. been like a month since i last spoke or seen him. we sure had a lot to catch up with. his army cook friend tagged along with us. his friend is such a pain.. i mean it. so childish , attention seeker, arrogant, rude, talkative. i've never seen a guy like him before.. so it was quite an enriching experience yesterday over dinner. best of all , his friend is older than the both of us. Doh!!! .. i'm not gonna elaborate on how childish his friend is.. but i'll have to pity cheekoon. his friend forced him to pay for our meal at swensens.

i broke the big news of me being attached to him very abruptly to him during dinner... we were having a conversation about chinatown so he happened to ask who i went with.. i said " oh.. i went with my boyfriend. -smiles- " think he was quite taken aback cos he stopped cutting his chicken and looked up at me.. gave me a big teasing grin then continued with his meal. over coffee he told me it's a good start for the new year for me. wahah.. dont know if it meant to be sarcastic or not. mwahaha.. good to see you again ck.

visited : Grace , Colin K

2003-01-26T02:14:00.000-08:00

chinatown

chinatown is boring this year. nothing much to look at anyway. kinda dissapointed after the trip.we didnt even see anyone selling mandarin oranges..? hmm?? - scratch head - glad bessie and jon joined us at chinatown. lotsa miscommunication going around last night so jon had to travel from somerset to outram then from outram back to dhoby ghaut to join us at mr bean's. sorry sir!!! =) and i had to wait alone at outram for my dear bf for 1hr... =/ bessie's going back to kl on mon. but she'll be back to singapore in feb again before flying back to aussie with jon.

eugene ended up being the chauffeur last night. picking up and dropping off his relatives. gee.. so he went missing for like 4hrs just to send drop and pick them while we wait for him at mr beans. been 6 years since he last stepped into church, he went to pray with calvin's folks. i asked what he told god .. he just said he asked for forgiveness, peace, good health , simple life for all his loved ones. he told him about his life, his studies, his business, lovelife and future plans. i was so touched cos he ask him to protect me from harm and give me happiness. i'm really really really touched cos no one has ever prayed for me .neither did i expect him to think of me. he seemed alot more calmer after he came back from church. =)

supper at geylang was really enjoyable. me and eugene couldnt agree more that bessie and jon are just made for each other. like "custom-made" . hehe.. they make such a cute couple, seriously. their conversation are always so hilarious and they always seem to be in harmony. he says something , she listens. he finishes speaking , she continues to add on then it goes on and on and on. so so so adorable. i told eugene we both should learn to be like them. it's much fun that way. lol

i wrote him a freaking long email yesterday afternoon regarding the "bad news" issue but after sorting out my thought thru the email to him. it worked out really well. we're perfectly fine now , closer & better x 100 ... so it's prolly blessing in disguise?

my dear close good friend , you know who you are. trust me. i cannot believe it either. it's such a small world aint it? i'm glad you're not that upset by the whole incident and you're still so supportive!! =)

this is all so crazy
we walk in and out of people's life every single day
but the 4 of us criss crossed each other's life in 4 years.
what happened to the cross road?
is this fate?

2003-01-25T00:12:00.000-08:00

8 mile

went to collect my new spectacles yesterday then bbq seafood dinner at alexandra village. totally yummylicious!! but a little too spicy i think and he cant really take spicy food. wahha lol..=) walked around ikea with eugene. he wants to take a look at the furniture , his elder bro's moving out soon. we went back to jurong point after that. wahhh.. sale sale sale everywhere.. Ocean Pacific 20% storewide,Bossini 50% !!! hmm... i've not even bought new year clothes =P so tempting. anyways, we went to queue up for Bee Cheng Hiang...such a long queue.. hmm.. then went straight to catch 8 miles. he's damn cute. like a doraemon. he bought mineral water and kept in his bag before he met up with me , brought his jacket out , brought chips and magazines. all these just for me. wahah.. so shocking. well it's a nice show.. very interesting rapping. we took a long walk home from jurong point again. workout man. hehe

yupe that's more or less my day. nothing fantastic about it also. but of cos he broke some really bad news to me by accident which really left me fuming mad for 1.5hrs and sleepless all night. i was like " why didnt you tell me earlier?!? why didnt you let me know?!? why didnt you say anything!!!!??? " well.. i'll have to do something it then. i'm just so dissapointed and my heart's hurting vey badly. hai... =| ... maybe i shld start reconsidering about everything? i cant say in details right here cos it'll not affect me but also a very very close good friend of mine who i know will be reading this. just let me think about it.

gonna go chinatown tonight with the rest of the guys.. hmm.. let's just hope i enjoy myself. =|

added links : Pei , Celine , Kelly

2003-01-23T22:59:00.000-08:00

early bird

happy birthday alex!!!!!

i hope u're reading this. =) hope u're doing fine in aussie now , i'll call and check on you soon.. keke.. ay, u've not sent me ur email add yet?? hmm.. send to me soon k?? i'll write to you. eat properly k.. i dunwanna see you skinnier than b4 the next time round. dont give me and ur mom more shock k? =P happy 25th birthday.

shijia's such a good girl. wahaha -puke- had a pretty early night last night cos i insisted that we should no longer talk late into the early mornings before it affects his grades and get those horrible looking eyebags. lol ... so we're in the process of leading a 'normal' lifestyle right now. i can never sleep for more than 10hrs, sleep early = wake up early . woke up early this morning then my cousin came over to my place with her 5 year old son. so sweet, she brought us peanut cookies that she made herself!! =) very tasty.. just like her mum's recipe. gonna go over my cousin's place on monday to make more peanut cookies.hehe.. so excited.

was bitching about the normal stuff with mum over breakfast .. i was trying to find the right time to break the news to her. i just couldnt get the words outtha my mouth .. stupid me. to think she was still mentioning that she's getting abit worried for me that i'm still single. hehe.. opps. sorry mom.

he was telling me that he wants me to go house visiting with him at his relative's place during the cny ... doh.. i went like " huh?? no... NoOooOo.. aiyoh..come on.. it's so weird lor" i just feel really weird abt the whole idea?? i'll be so out of place?? well.. we'll see . but i really appreciate his gesture cos it shows that i'm part of his life now. i'm happy about it. =)

just wasted 5 bucks on her world feb issue. nothing to read at all. -sulks- warning : don't buy!!!! ayyy.. look at the time. i better get going already, hafta go doll myself up =P today go pak tor (dating) ... hehehe -grins-

He is finally back after the long break. welcome back jimmy!
visited : Pei & kel

2003-01-23T03:11:00.000-08:00

-smiles-

been bloggin very little lately.. nothing much happening to let me bitch about so.... =X ? heheh ,

went to queensway shopping centre yesterday to make a new pair of spectacles..thanks to bernard.i've got it at a cheaper price. much cheaper =) thanks thanks!! and i'm glad he finally got the apartment he wanted. rem to invite me for your housewarming k?? =)
i bought a super low waist jeans from queensway too. less than half the price of a pair of Levis. think it's a good deal ?? i think so!!

then i walked over to ikea.. feels really good looking at their furniture. so cute =) met up with eugene at jurong point for dinner and coffee. got home at 6.15am this morning.. slept all the way till 2pm. hehe.. cleaned up my room ,spoke to bessie on the phone, talked to liwei on irc. yes yes.. pop champagne.. ..congratulate me guys =)

i've noticed that many are falling sick this couple of weeks. get well soon & take care of yourselves!!!! - evilnick, terry , carol , anne's family etc etc!!!

added : Clara neat layout, give her ur support !!!! =) , Etel & Ben

2003-01-21T09:19:00.000-08:00

dinner for everyone

went for interview yesterday.. spent like 1+ hr in the boss's office. hmmm he was telling me abt lotsa things.. marketing crap blahblahblah. had lunch at marche with bessie .. then went shopping with her. seriously there's nothing to buy man. hate it...hate it.... argh!!! i got so fed up that i bought this mng top on impulse heheh... there's this new shoe shop at citylink. super affordable shoes .. brand from msia. i bought 2 sandals =P yes yes..i'm a slippers/sandals girl...=)

stayed home today, cooked dinner for my family. so tired... i smell like curry =P

2003-01-19T20:22:00.000-08:00

left left left left right left

had dinner with all my neighbours last night at swensens. been a long time since we all had a proper meal together. so what's the occasion? well, hanwei's enlisting into army this wednesday.. so we all kinda like have a farewell dinner for him? wahha.. we ate so much at swensens... other than e main course, they ordered fries and wings and earthquake. hehe.. such a nice feeling to have all of us spending time with each other again =) ... those were the days. i'm gonna miss him so much when he's in tekong? whaha.. i'll miss fighting & wrestling with him. hehe.. yes yes.. i'm very violent =P i promised i'll cook him japanese curry for lunch tomm.

had a very long chat with eugene this morning.. things are going really well for us. we'll see what happens then. maybe my friends could finally pop champagne and call a celebration for me? -smile- ... well anyways, i gottha leave the house now. got an interview in town.. then off to meet bessie for shopping again. Yay!!!!

2003-01-18T23:52:00.000-08:00

mer...mer.... merlion.

was packing my room from 11am till 5.30pm on friday. super tired man. i'm still not done with my room yet.. more stuff to move. but at least it looks so much cleaner and spacious. =) added lotsa new photos onto my table.. ehhe..=) yay! met up with bessie and eugene in city hall.. went over to 'california bistro' over at the esplanade for dinner. yummy!!!.. eugene used to work there so we got a little discount off e tab. hehe =) ...took a stroll after dinner... took some pictures.. then we walked over to embargo for drinks. hehe..=) such a smalllllll smallll smallll world. so happens that eugene and jonathan (bess's bf) met each other before when they were in tekong years ago?? =) lol.. so the men were like bitching about the times in tekong and stuff.. then i was happily playing with his palm top.. hehe yay.bejeweled again! =P then Liwei popped by and he left without even saying goodbye or anything. Hmph!!??!!? ah well, we went over to boat quay for supper. saw this young chap being handcuffed by the police... think he's on drugs.. he looks sooo stoned. hmm ..kids.

analyse that

went over to tampines to accompany my mom for her haircut. she looks so demure looking!!! =) so pretty!! met up with my sister.. had dinner together..shopped abit. hehe.. then went down town to meet up with the rest of the gang... me and eugene ended waiting for the rest of e guys for like 2 hours.. sat at Ps Starbucks playing bejeweled again before watching 'Analyse That'... super nice show. it's kinda vulgar but the acting and storyline is seriously GOOD i dont even mind watching it for another time. =P drove down to kallang KFC for supper. i called a call from liwei the min i stepped into my room.. had a brief chat with him.. then he was explaining to me how come he left so suddenly the night before at embargo. i couldnt get to sleep, was staring at the ceiling , tossing and turning, doing some thinking... just gottha straighten out some things.. hmm.. very important.what lies ahead in the future for us?

2003-01-16T09:07:00.000-08:00

ignorant ppl

[-added]

k this is something i find rather disturbing.after so many years..some ppl just wont Grow up. still some fucked up as ever.MEN!!! always trying to show off whatever they have. Below , a conversation between two of my irc friends .

LatinFrog>> ray driving wad car now?
meandmy>>eh sisters car. sharing
meandmy>> 523i
meandmy>>anybody here
meandmy>>wanna buy a fish tank?
meandmy>> 3ft by 2ft?
meandmy>> haha
LatinFrog>> look for sam
meandmy>> wheres that fat bastard
meandmy>> selling oakleys too
meandmy>> getting rid of my junk
LatinFrog>> ray so wad u've been up to?
LatinFrog>> still trying to cheat inoocent small gers?
meandmy>> excuse me?
meandmy>> say that again?
meandmy>> was that suppose to be funny.
LatinFrog>> nope
LatinFrog>> if u gt a bad sense of humour
LatinFrog>> so wad haf u been up to?
meandmy>> nothing much ..washing the car.
meandmy>> having coffee.
LatinFrog>> i still havent got the chance to wash my own car....
meandmy>> club once and then
LatinFrog>> now can only sit in instructors civic
meandmy>> suharto. are u indirectly trying to tell me u own ur very own freaking mazda323?
meandmy>> drive to my condo one day
LatinFrog>> nah i dun wanna drive w/o a license
meandmy>> u dont have a lisence
meandmy>> wtf
LatinFrog>> still in process
meandmy>> getting sick of driving..
meandmy>> its a choir now
LatinFrog>> why cus no gals to pick up ahz?
meandmy>> uh no?
meandmy>> what has it got to do with them?
meandmy>> and i dont like picking up girls.
meandmy>> only my gf
LatinFrog>> ooooohhhhh
meandmy>> ohhhh...ur head

totally superficial and egoistic. yucks. what's that about girls hating guys acting cool... now u get the picture?.. some guys just TRY too hard without realising the fact that they're making a fool out of themselves. oh poor lost self illusioned souls.

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tim sum!!! tim sum!!

had tim sum over at suntec for dinner with my folks. then rushed over to carrefour to do some groceries shopping before they close for the day. i bought maybelline's new pure blush in pure rose!! very pink.. so girlish! i couldnt resist.. hehe.. i'm really fancinated by the design of the blusher. it's has a lil' mirror and brush together with the blusher.pretty functional but still very troublesome.heh.. i got this habit of buying lotsa cosmetics but i hardly use them at all!! hiaks.

i'm gonna get myself another pair of glasses.. but i'll have to wait for Bernard to make a trip down to the optician with me. hope he's free soon?? before i finish my pay? seems like almost everyone is under tremendous depression over their love life. why like that leh?? hope you guys cheer up soon..really.

gonna go down to embargo tomm night with bessie and eugene. but i seriously have to start packing up my room .. it's scary how it looks like now. =P

visited Ben today. i wonder if he's Santaben?? i'm a lil' confused ...!? help?

2003-01-16T02:03:00.000-08:00

hero sucks. dont watch!

met up with bessie at holland village again. so many nice things to buy!!! so spoilt for choices especially their cute flip flops!! i'm the kinda flip flop person.. eheh i went berserk man. heheh no idea which one to buy! sequinned ones? or the more earthy beaded type?? designs sold over at holland village is so much nicer and unique looking than those you see in town. hehe.. i got seashell tatami flip flop..hehe.. love it. gonna buy more flip flops the next time i drop by. then we explored lotsa new shops over the 'windmill' or rather now called 'holland village shopping mall" or something. lotsa nice looking boutiques.. hehe xodus has a new branch there but come on.. $70 for a pair of flip flops... you must be crazy!!!! =P we went for coffee before making our way down to tiong bahru to meet up eugene.

went tiong bahru market for dinner.. hmm we left the place smelling like 'char kway teow'.. then i went to watch 'Hero' with eugene.. goodness .. such a overhyped show. seriously it sucks. no meaning and it just keeps repeating & repeating. quite lame. seriously waste of money. ahhh... enough of bad movie. had coffee with him before he left for work. poor boy...hehe. two cups of pure chocolated ice blended for me in a day.. hehe. sinful.

jiahao and zikai waited for me chinese garden mrt. met up for supper.. but we ended up buying lotsa junk food from the petrol kiosk then settling down at the poolside of zikai's condo. really nice place. i went into the toilet.. then i saw this woman coming out of the shower totally naked. got a shock sial. then when i came out of the cubicle... she's still naked!!! standing right there drying herself slowly. oh god.. i saw everything. hehe.. weird. we're making plans for a steamboat dinner gathering again in feb then a trip to kuala lumpur. so so excited. i cant wait!!! =)

2003-01-13T10:08:00.000-08:00

not in the mood

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house phone starts ringing - ring ring! ring ring!

me: haaaaaaaaa-llo
mum: mmm so how?
me: what how?!
mum: you going out later? or joining us for dinner?
me: -paused for a sec- mmm not going out so dinner with you guys.
mum: so you want us to come pick you up or...?
me: yupe
mum: then you better go get ready now, go bathe then get dressed up if not we're have to wait for you again and then ...... - i hung up on her -

phone starts ringing again - ring ring !

mum again: -very patiently- okay, just go get ready now alright?
me: hmmmm .... mmmmmm...

good thing my mom realised that i'm not exactly in the best of mood for her nagging today.sorry mom... i still love ya. -hugs-

First i saw their "Not gonna get us" mtv then i downloaded their tracks which i really like by the way.This new russian duo "T.a.t.u" is making their way up steadily to the billboards chart worldwide. Find out more about them here

playlist: " all the things she said " , " not gonna get us" , " 30 minutes" , " clowns " by T.a.t.u

30 minutes

Mama, Papa forgive me

Out of sight, Out of mind
Out of time, To decide

Do we run?, Should I hide?
For the rest, Of My life

Can we fly?, Do I stay?
We could lose, We could fail

In the moment, It takes
To make plans, Or Mistakes

Thirty minutes, a blink of an eye
Thirty minutes, to alter our lives
Thirty minutes, to make up my mind
Thirty minutes, to finally decide

Thirty minutes, to whisper your name
Thirty minutes, to shoulder the blame
Thirty minutes, of bliss, thirty lies
Thirty minutes, to finally decide

Carousels, in the sky
That we shape, with our eyes

Under shade, silhouettes
Casting shade, Crying rain...

Can we fly? Do I stay?
We could lose, we could fail...
Either way

Options change, Chances fail
Trains derail

Thirty minutes, a blink of an eye
Thirty minutes, to alter our lives
Thirty minutes, to make up my mind
Thirty minutes, to finally decide

Thirty minutes, to whisper your name
Thirty minutes, to shoulder the blame
Thirty minutes, of bliss, thirty lies
Thirty minutes, to finally decide

To decide, to decide, to decide, to decide
to decide, to decide, to decide, to decide

To decide.
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are you lonesome tonight?

met up with bessie today in town..hehe. had crystal jade xiao long bao for lunch then jonathan came over to join us for lunch in his gucci uniform. so smart looking and his hair is short now!! so smart looking!!! =) went over to check out the Zara Sale ...ekks, nothing fantastic. probably all the goodies have been snapped up over the weekends??? Mango sale... nothing again. probably last season's collection just aint right for me. so dissapointed , i tot i could get something decent for cny or something. Met up with Cheekoon in Holland village for dinner at Sushi Tei. so Bessie got her "wish" fulfilled... she has been wanting to meet cheekoon.. whaha.. she's just curious la.. like "who's this guy that ah burn has been talking about on her blog for the past few months?!"

I'm so glad that i'm getting my appetite back slowly. at least i got to eat 3 diff types of ice cream today. whaha.. gonna keep hanging out with bessie for the next 2 weeks.. ehhe. just keep her company since i got nothing to do.. anyway she's great to hang out with. hehe. never can i expect myself to click so well with a fellow blogger in person wor.. hehe. =)

having so much difficulty in adjusting to 6510... i hate the messaging functions. SO COMPLICATED. make my life so miserable man. so happens that cheekoon went to get a 6510 earlier in the evening too. whaha. but his hp cover is so much nicer than mine!!! i'm so glad april could finally read my entries now!! and she has a new layout!!! poor girl.. gonna get 4 teeth extracted tomm.. ouch! good luck girl!!! *hugs*

Clara has a new layout too!! so adorable!! give her some support!! =)

i'm so bored tonight. because someone's too busy to talk to me.we've not been talking much for the past 2 days and i'm so so so so uncomfortable with it. not even a single call or 3 sms a day...but oh well... what to do?? -endure-

well for those Lord of the Rings Fanatics, take LOTR personality test

my result :
You are most like Denethor, Son of Ecthelion, Lord and Steward of Minas Tirith

People like you are rare. Unfortunately the closest person is Denethor. His obsession with knowing the future and suspicion of others is characteristic.
Everything that happens is important and you do not want to miss any of it. Others often look to you for courage, leadership, and wisdom. Social interaction energizes you. The more people the merrier. You have a tendency to introspection. While providing compassion and being considerate, you may have the tendency of being soft-hearted or even "too emotional" You like keeping your options open. Closure is probably not one of your strong suits.

The Orcs display the evil side of this personality with their lengthy torture methods.

Traits: Empathic, benevolent, looking to the future. On the dark side you could be sadistic.

2003-01-12T08:13:00.000-08:00

I'm a Creationist!

Which Enemy of the Christian Church Are You?

Take More of Robert & Tim's Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim's Cartoons

goodbye weekend

She has a great blog..go check it out!

& She makes great looking bags!!! give tanya some support!!!! =)

3 movies in a week. long time since i did that. two week's notice on mon,absolutely lovely show. =) lord of the rings on friday with eugene... still a nice show. love it. two thumbs up.however i failed to enjoy the show in peace. this couple sitting beside me were talking so loudly to each other throughout the entire show. the guy was translating the show to his gf, worst of all .. he's not good at it. so distracting! i got soo irritated. i mean it's not like as if they paid more than anyone else in the theatre to catch the show . well, what to do? some people are just so inconsiderate.eugene wanted to tell them off so many times, but i stopped him just in time. after the show we walked all the way back home from jurong point. 45mins on foot.. had supper then we chatted till daybreak.

had my saturday lunch with him again, playing bejeweled on his palmtop in delifrance. he was teasing me about the joke i told him e other night... " how do you put a giraffe into the refrigerator?" i think the kids sitting beside us overheard us laughing over it and they started to ask their father the exact same qn on the spot. whahaha..copycats!!! =P walked ard abit at imm, then he had to attend a wedding dinner but he lent me his palm for the evening so i could practice on breaking his record. well i did .. *smile* we met up again in e night with the rest of the gang for movie in town. ended up watching this super funny R(a) show called GoldenChicken. it's basically about this prostitute telling her life story and stuff.. very hilarious. totally enjoyed it. think jaime had fight with her bf again.her bf seriously has something against us.. he's just full of crap man. Urgh! -roar-

i've not been eating much all week. my body's rejecting whatever i'm eating.lost of appetite and i'm never hungry! dont know what's wrong with me also. maybe i'm falling sick or maybe it's like what eugene said , i'm emotionally/pyschologically upset over something.but duh... Like what!? i'm gonna start losing weight if i continue losing my appetite. but well on a happier note, i had my first half plate of rice today and it's cheekoon's birthday. and no.. i didnt get to celebrate his big day with him. i did ask him out though.. but he said he's going out with the boys. happy birthday boy.... u're finally 21 ! =)

hooray!!! just got a sms from Bessie.. she's in singapore already!! gonna go shopping with her tomm in town!!! Yay!

2003-01-08T10:48:00.000-08:00

what to do, what to do?

after the failed attempt to display the pictures i decided to take them down first until i've finally managed to understand how to put it up. hehe.. well i'll need lotsa help on this.. any kind soul out there willing to give me a helping hand?

went down to tanjong pagar to pass my sis some stuff yesterday then dropped off at bukit batok to collect my photos before meeting up with eugene at jurong point for dinner. poor boy... he's sick. he looked kinda 'nuan mian mian' (weak) when i saw him.. instantly making feel so guilty for making come out for dinner. at least he bothered to buy medicine for himself to eat... had a very very long chat with him at the coffeeshop near my place before sending me home.

didnt go for my final theory today.. i've got no mood and i didnt even study at all.. so what the hell. met up with alice for dinner at bugis... she had to attend her aikido classes soon after we're done with dinner so i decided to shop around in bugis.... feeling really weird this couple of days. First, i've no appetite at all.. so i'll usually end up eating only one meal a day , then i've been having really really weird dreams or even sometimes nightmares. having lotsa unspoken troubled feelings inside of me recently... dont know what's wrong also...affects my mood big time. to all my close friends : i'm really sorry if i've been really acting strange or coldly toward you guys this couple of days k? i dun mean it.

i saw lotsa familiar faces when i was shopping at bugis.. think i saw my sec sch friend etcetc... bought a letter set, a bag, a skirt. heheh....

quote of the day : "shut up !!! you disillusioned bitch!!!"

visited sarah , christina , anna , gillian , etel

2003-01-07T23:23:00.000-08:00

x.o.x.o.

had seafood dinner at long beach @ imm. so so so expensive yet not tasty at all. service sucks and uniform the staff are supposed to wear are Not Uniformed at all. strange. by the time i got home it was already supper time. got a sms from hanwei asking all of us to go for supper. had roti prata at the coffeeshop nearby. i was telling my friends tat i bumped into hanwei during new year's eve countdown at sentosa and he was so rude. didnt even bother to say hi despite the fact that i went up to him . he then made a big hoo-haa over it saying that he was rushing to catch the bus and stuff. (duh.. who isnt rushing to catch bus at that time? how much time can it take just to say a 'hi' ?) well he got mad at me . (like i care... so used it already.) so there we were.. suddenly a few mins of intense argument then silence between the 4 of us. hehe. i just rolled my eyes at him. thing is.. he's always forever right and his reasons are always the best, and i'm always forever in the wrong. such a smallgas.

after supper , we followed by our usual routine ..a visit to 7-11 to stock up junk food. maria,alvin,hanwei & me. we went over to hanwei's place for movie. some lame korean show with leon lai in it. so boring. 10mins later we switched shows. next on the list... alien 1 , 2 and 3. goodness...does he have anything better than these? 10mins of alien 1 and we switched back to the lame korean show. even when we'll back at his place.. he still gave me the 'attitude'. i got so bored and irritated... i went home leaving him and maria to enjoy the boring korean show.

look what i got from Bessie!!!

she's such a sweetie!!hehe. she's coming down to spore again this sat!! cant wait to see her again!! hee hee!!!!

2003-01-06T08:10:00.000-08:00

two weeks notice

added michelle & i removed some links that are no longer working.

caught "two weeks notice" with jiahao at jurong point this evening. was supposed to watch lotr.. but apparently the theatre showing the movie was having some problem with the sound surround system so we caught the latter instead. totally enjoyed the show. i love romantic comedies.. esp when there's hugh grant in it. he's such a charmer. think notthing hill or about a boy. hehe.. well i'm not gonna spill the beans about the show here.. go catch it!! =)

no big plans tomm.. just wanna laze ard at home, probably devote some time to clean up my room and look for the lost bag. my whole pig sty is in a mess man.. horrible horrible. hehe.. will hafta go down to tanjong pagar to pass my sis her stuff tomm.. she can be really annoying at times.. kept bugging me.. so to get her off my back i'll just have to make e trip.

i just heard the most beautiful quote on 93.3fm . it totally depics my philosophy in life. just tot of sharing it with you guys~

"yi ge ren de kuai le bu shi yin wei ta yong you de duo er shi yin wei ta ji jiao de shao"

2003-01-05T10:45:00.000-08:00

biological clock

my biological clock has been really messed up for the past week. hehe.. sleeping at 7am in the mornings , waking up at 3 or 4pm .then out to have fun again. hehe.. good thing i'm having my long vacation now. i couldnt believe it man.. my beloved 'lost' ring magically found its way on my table this afternoon. hehe.. but now i realised that my little red bag has been missing in action for the past week. i couldnt find it anywhere. damn.. i kept losing my stuff recently... maybe it's a gentle reminder from someone up there??

i kept tossing and turning this morning, couldnt get to sleep at all.... i dunnoe why mind was filled with thoughts at like 7.30am and when i'm physically tired from all the fun. the thinking just went on thru out the entire day... it felt like my mind was having a thrashing out with my heart... i couldnt answer majority of the qns my mind asked. i'm still feeling very weird now... going thru an emotional period again. probably it's what they call 'reflection time' .

visited chiuyan

2003-01-04T14:51:00.000-08:00

bbq.ktv..clubbing.supper

i was having second thoughts about going for the bbq. i thought it'll be weird to see ppl whom i've not been contact for almost 9yrs. hehe but jiahao kinda insisted that i turn up . it was quite a pleasant gathering even though majoriy of the ppl who turned up are not from my class. even teachers came to show their support. food was really tasty. really have to thank zhikai for going thru the trouble to get everything done.

saw sally , my buddy during the pri sch days.. hehe. i'm really happy to see most of them.majority of the ppl couldnt recognise me cept sally. and everyone mistaken me and jiahao for a couple. think it got worst as we explained ourselves. wahah. i think there'll be more gathering coming up soon before cny... hee i cant wait!!! =)

went for ktv session today again.. was playing monopoly and bejeweled on eugene's palm top all the way instead of singing. then we dropped by illusion's for drinks before going for supper. mushroom cheese prata...... yummylicious.

2003-01-04T00:31:00.000-08:00

eat and play eat and play eat and play... just like hongkong!

my friday rocks man. i was quite upset by the fact that the boss wanted me go all the way down to serangoon for interview simply because he said my chances are very high. ahh well..i did get the job. full time permanent job. but after much thinking i decided not to take e job.they wanted me to start like immediately on Mon. i cant do it man. i just ended my temp job. i havent even had a break.. i'm not ready to commit into a perm job. the money sounds really tempting.. but i just cant make myself do something which i dislike.

i met up with eugene after my interview. had dinner with 'hooked on pasta" then coffee before catching "gangs of new york". it's a pretty long show man. 2hr45mins. gruesome show..lotsa fighting,lotsa bloodshed. then i was so shocked that there were lotsa lotsa half naked bare breasted woman on the show. i tot they would usually censor it off?? i was like shouting "free porn!! free porn!!" ahah hilarious man. we had desserts after e show then we walked over to e esplanade while waiting for calvin. had 3hrs of Ktv. long time since i really sang that much. but the aircon was too cold.. we were all shivering while singing.

had supper at the porridge stall nearby , bumped into eugene's 2 other frens.. can tell that they drank quite a fair bit. they look 'high' . hehe.. calvin finally arrived after 4 hrs.. apparently, he got stopped by the police for speeding. fine for $150. wahaha.. orbi good!!! =P had another supper at geylang then they drove to marina south for pool session. i was dozing off while watching them. hehe.

i lost one of my fave ring last night. i've no idea when or where i might dropped it. super sad man. argh... having a bbq later then will be going for drinks with jiahao. hehe.. this weekend rocks man.

2003-01-02T10:33:00.000-08:00

New Year Countdown @ Sentosa 2002

happy birthday Sebastian!!!!!

you're the Sweetest!!!and i'll never forget you!!! dont you worry!! love ya loads pal !!!

i figured out that a picture says a thousand words. good thing calvin sent me the pictures and i got sebastian to load the pictures up for me. thanks guys!!!! enjoy~

moi & eugene (my handsome 'date' aka calvin's cousin)

li-wei & moi (look at his super goofy face)

us again ( he sure cant do a normal pose for the camera)

calvin & moi

yea...us again. 'dating' couple for that night. hee

2003-01-02T02:24:00.000-08:00

hello , two oh oh three

so how's the new year coming?? sentosa was so crowded as expected. packed like sardines. the fireworks was so beautiful.lucky my friend calvin recorded it down onto his digital camera.and i bumped into my neighbour hanwei and my sec band mate.so cool! hehe. but the music sucks big time. waste of time and money. everyone was like so bored.cant dance much to the bad tune well and the foam thing sucks too. i seriously dont see the fun of it....i mean as a girl's point of view. tat's the downside of it.

we left the place at 6am then took a long walk out of sentosa. i had mac breakfast with liwei before heading home. my legs were so tired and i can feel them giving way anytime. too much dancing for the past week. hehe. i'm glad to see all my friends again tat day. esp eugene... i dont see him ard much. very nice of him to help me carry my big heavy bag tat day. so we became each other's "date" that night. wahha. super funny. i met calvin's gf for the first time. very sweet looking girl. hehe. too bad jaime left before going into the party. i think her bf suxxs lor. imagine yourself just reaching your ultimate destination and leaving right away. wahlua..

i'm meeting alice for dinner at holland village later. as usual i'm late. wahaha.. anyways. i'm gonna go for an interview tomm. wish me luck. my ex colleagues are so nice. they brought me out for lunch that day and we had sharkfin for lunch!! ahha... then one of the managers introduced me to his friend (going for interview tomm) who's hiring right now!!! thanks uncle francis!! wahah.. then i got farewell pressies from my collegues as well.. chocolates and photoframe. i even got a hug from her. i mean seriously.. i've never felt such a close bond with a collegue b4... wah.. so touched. i'm a lucky girl, happy girl. muakz ppl~

2002-12-30T19:12:00.000-08:00

boring boring boring..

it's really boring here in the office. suprisingly quite a number of people turned up for work hehe. =) i've got nothing much to do today. basically i've cleared all my work and there's no incoming stuff for me to do. sigh~ i'll just slack my day thru work i guess. hehe

i've finally made a call to alex in perth. he's doing ok i think. always staying at home playing computer games and working less nowadays? ehhe.. i hope he's doing fine lah seriously.

yay!! bessie's coming to singapore again in mid jan. heh. i hope we cld spend more time hanging out this time round. she's very fun to be with... very chatty just like me! opps~

haiyah!! it's pouring heavily outside again. wah... win liao. happy new year guys.

2002-12-30T07:49:00.000-08:00

2nd last day @ work

i always hate shopping at Giant. it's always so crowded. gives me a splitting headache everytime i go there.just got home from groceries shopping with my folks. tomm's my last day @ work, i bought some farewell gifts for my colleagues too. i'm so gonna miss them.they're definately one of the best people i've ever worked with. i seriously count myself lucky. throughout these years of working , i usually have nice colleagues and it's a big deal considering the number of hours you gonna spend with them.i really love what i do now in this company.at least i like what i do. a part of me feels really glad tat i can finally bid goodbye to the early mornings which i totally drag waking up to wherelse the other part of me feels kinda sad that i gottha start everything all over again..trying to adapt to the whole new environment and new colleagues. . most importantly, i'm not gonna have anymore income to depend on for a short period of time.

feeling very 'holiday' lately?? my office's like a ghost town. everyone's on leave. hehe.. well...i still gottha work full day tomm despite it's new yr's eve. sucks man... all my other friends including my sis is having half day . but nmind lor... the more i work the more i get paid? hee.. since i'm so broke.. might as well. have to rush down to sentosa after work tomm for the countdown. actually i'm not in the mood for anything tomm evening but i cant back out now.. they've already bought my tix. sigh.. i'll just lay low tomm at sentosa i guess.. definately not gonna go into the foam pool. dunwanna put myself at risk of being molested. this year no big tall mascular chaperon ard to protect me wor. hee hee..

well.. happy new year in advanced people!!! i'll go wrap my gifts now and turn in early today. tomm's a long long long long day. woohoo.. bikini time =P

2002-12-29T00:38:00.000-08:00

maison basque + embargo

friday

i went shopping with my sister in town on friday evening. MNG on sale. super crazy place. i got myself a black skirt for work. did very little shopping cos she's always wasting time smoking or taking too long to pick out her purchases. i bumped into cheekoon at borders. i was having this discussion with my sis about the journals when suddenly someone tapped gently on my shoulders. turned ard and " wah!! it you!! " wahhaa.anyway i was hanging out at the jazz cd corner with cheekoon when he picked out this really nice jazz big swing cd. i secretly paid for it and gave it to him as a gift. hehe i hope he likes it. hung out at swensens with my sis and her bf till 3am.

saturday

i tried to do some last minute shopping at jurong point before meeting up with the gang dinner. no luck still. ended up eating andersens' icecream with my mom. yummylicious man!!! hehe.. i'm so happy cheekoon turned up for the dinner gathering.he totally made my day. everyone dressed up and the french food was great. i'm glad the restaurant managers recognised me cos i've always been a regular there. so all of us received better service . hehe.. felt like VIPs. hehe. value for money =)

we went to embargo to have a couple of drinks after the dinner. pretty nice place.i had strawberry maguerita.taste fruity!? but i'm glad everyone had a good time. all those corny jokes *lol*... suhana and alif dropped by too. i'm really glad they came.so happens that all the girls are quitting their jobs at the same time. hehe. i've got a xmas gift from alice. japanese cookbook!! wise choice!! i love food. =)

went over to my neighbour's place after the chilling session. all of us ended up playing pictionary. wahha. super fun. i paired up with hanwei while maria teamed up with her bf. whaha.. now i know my neighbour cant draw for nuts. ehhe.. he totally suxx at it man. and i realised i'm still pretty good at drawing!!! wahha.. it was fun~

i visited him today. nice site!

2002-12-26T20:36:00.000-08:00

belated merry christmas my darlings!!!!

sorry for the late update on my blog. life's been really wicked for the past few days. jammed pack with activities. hehe..
so how's christmas for everybody?? my computer was down for the past few days, i couldnt do much without it too.but i'm really happy too. i bumped into my old blader friend on the train. he's so sweet and handsome. sorry girls... he's attached. =P then i found an old pri sch mate. then i got a xmas card from weilong.. he has the best handwriting!! seriously!!! then daniel called me again. falalala.. maybe he just cant do without me? wahaha. *pui* let's see what i've been up to during the xmas holidays.

tuesday

yes it's xmas eve!! half day at work. yippee..everyone's so busy clearing their desk. i recieved two presents from my colleagues. they're so sweet!!!! a solvet titus bracelet with my name on it and a box of chocolates!!! yummy!!! then they were giving out logcakes in the office. totally yummylicious. it's the first time i'm eating logcake. hehe.i got dragged to go ktv with them after work at j'springs. hmm pretty neat. they're a pretty fun bunch despite the age difference. hehe.. so ktv till 5pm.. it started pouring again. took my own sweet time to go down town to meet up with liwei and my sis and her bf. hehe..huge crowd in town but of cos we avoid the main roads. just take the road at the back of the malls and you'll be free of those pushing ,shoving ard and foot stamping crap. phew~ we found a 8210 at macs. whahaa.. *dingding!*but we're all honest people eh??.. we returned to its owner anyway. hehe.. it belongs to some sec sch ahlian i think. hehe.. then my sis and her bf brought us to devilbars.we started dancing from 11 to 4am man. i tot my legs were gonna give way or something.the place's so packed and i was like so not dressed up for it man. i look like a school girl man while everyone else's pretty dressed up.. flirty skirts.tubes dresses and heels!!! i'm in my old old jeans and long sleeve tshirt with sneakers! i didnt really enjoy the clubbing part. too much people and the guys sucks man. the words 'PERVERT' are like engraved on their foreheads man. they would not make way for you to cross and they like to brush their smelly filty body onto you "accidentally" fuck man. CHEAP THRILL. i just stared so sternly into them when they were attempting to take advantage of the situation. sickos man. how bloody sick can a person get?!?! argh... my blood boils whenever i think of it. then there was this guy standing beside me.. he kept tapping on my shoulder and whispering stuff into my ears which i dunnoe what the hell he was mumbling abt. i went like "WHAT!? WHAT DO YOU WANT!?" he just turned away..then later he continued to tap on my shoulders. SICK MAN! ehehe..my sis's bf was commenting that one of the bartenders was looking at me. wahha.. he's cute and tall alright. hehe.. maybe next time.=P

wednesday

woke up at 4pm in the afternoon. the longest sleep i ever had in a long long time. had steamboat dinner with my folks then went to carrefour again for groceries shopping. i got a call from shujuan (my sec band mate) telling that there's this guy who is looking for me.apparently this guy is my primary school mate.he saw me in one of her graduation photos . hehe i'm pretty happy i found another pri school mate nearly 11yrs after. cool~..the best part is.. he just lives like one bus stop away from my place. wahaha.. now i got one more kaki to go supper with. =P... there's more surprises to come i believe. he's organising a bbq gathering next sat .. all our pri school mates will turn up including the teachers. whaha.. how interesting... i'm gonna show up with jiahao and we'll both go chill out somewhere after the bbq. hehe..

thursday

i skipped work today. had mac breakfast with mom then i chilled the whole afternoon away at home watching tv and eating chips. hehe.. the best time! then i rem something liwei commented about my blog. he says i'm really open in what i say. i say literally everything and i hardly hide anything. totally exposing everything in my life. hmm i wonder if he meant that it's bad for me or the other way round. bessie too said the same thing to me when she saw me the other time. perhaps i'm should -zip- up a little bit more. ahhh.. i dunnoe lar~

friday

skipped work again today. i'm really feeling damn lazy. hehe.. bad girl. i've leaving the company of the of the yr. which means i'm left with another 2 working days?! hehe.. i'll miss those guys back in the office. such a nice bunch. gottha run some errands for my mom later and get some photos done. then i'll make a trip down town to order a farewell cake for my office. then meet up with my sister in orchard for shopping. MNG is on sale!!!!! *chiong ah!!!!!!* whahaa..

i'm feeling really pissed over some issues with the gathering tomm evening. it's just so difficult to please everyone and the thing is if i didnt even organise this gathering.. no one would do it anyway. i do anything to make everyone happy and sporting enough to chip in. but no... now i have to fight over halal and non halal food. nothing against religious beliefs but it's just sound really ridiculous to bring 8-9 chinese people into a muslim eatery with just one muslim person ard.ok. compromise.i'm totally cool with muslim food..cos i like spicy food but what abt the rest?? i cant gurantee that they will like the idea of going 'halal'. and i've already told them the location of the french restaurant half a mth ago.you should know who r the ppl in e gang that will make a big 'hoo-haa'. what shld i do?? hai.. i'm not gonna call and sms everyone again. it's so unfair to me. no one is helping me and i'm not even complaining abt the hp bills... still have to consider the locations of e place.accessibility,ambience,price range,delicious or not, service and stuff.. it's nt easy man. like what my parents always say " want cheap and good ".. fancy you telling me that it doesnt make a difference if you dont turn up since there's already so many ppl going. i'm so dissapointed that you said that. here i am trying to make a nice reunion and there you are throwing a wet blanket right in my face. thanks alot. whatever it is, i'm really pissed off and frustrated with this thing going on. right now, i dunwanna fight with you anymore. you turn up or not.. it's your call. i leave the decision to you. i've always supported you in everything you do. do what makes you happy and i'll be happy ,cos u're my closest gf.

2002-12-21T22:05:00.000-08:00

time is running out!!!!

by the time we got to town was already 6plus. town is so crowded. human jam..traffic jam..everything. i got my free lipgloss from the loreal counter at wisma. yippee..new lippie!! =) we walked around. i couldnt really make up my mind what to get for cheekoon and my sister . seriously, nothing caught my attention... but i saw a nifty slingback at OP. but... i wonder if he'll like it. wanted to buy a bloom eyebrown pencil for my sis but i doubt she knows how to use it. hehe.. turned to zara for inspiration. no luck still. by then jiahao's mum has already reached orchard as well. time's out for me... i cant shop anymore.. argh~

i was really feeling very low cos i'm pretty stressed out by the fact i've not gotten anything at all despite the trip all the way to town. i think my face was rather 'black' .. haha.. i sneaked into 'crabtree evelyn' boutique while jiahao went to the toilet and bought a set of reallly really nice hand cream!!! ehhe.. very rich and value for money. of cos it's not cheap as well.=P hehe.. but i'm happy i bought the cream.. my hands are sooooo dry and unsexy. =P a tube of hand cream and the other one's the scrub. now the scrub simply amazes me. when you pour the scrub onto your hand it's rather watery like those expired moisturizers but what you have to do is start rubbing your palms together in "washing hands" motion for 10-20secs. the watery scrub turns into salt once you start rubbing .cool huh? then rinse your hands with (warm) water. the salt immediately melts away and leaves your hand with a coat of superd rich moisturizing cream!!! 3 in 1 !!!! cool huh??

it worked really well for me!! my hands now are more supple and softer and smoother. the cream/scrub works well for any dry areas (i.e ankles,elbows) as well. hehe.. it's not smelly and that's a pro! =) okay..i sound like a promoter now. they should be paying me man. heheh..so met up with jiahao's mom .. we went marche @ heeren for dinner. superd dinner. steak,calamari,soup,fish grill,juices,choc cake, ice cream. ... awesome!?

ocho's @ chijmes rocks too. hehe.. surprisely it wasnt the least crowded at all last night. but it's sat??! hmm..the live performance totally swept me off my feet.. hehe.. the trip played and sang really well. they sang "perhaps perhaps perhaps" (the sookee jewellery commercial song) and "can't take my eyes off you" (carlsberg commercial) and lotsa really nice song. when they came to our table i requested for a elvis presley number. so they sang " can't help falling in love " ... i had tears in my eyes. hehe. so romantic !!!! too bad i'm still single. but it's great to still enjoy what i do despite being single. one is still better than two. =P

i hope jiahao and his folks enjoyed themselves too. jiahao was like telling me it's really a cool place. he's so sick of those clubs playing dance number. it's a good change i believe.

haiyah. it's raining again. i wanna go out leh. probably go to compassvale point to explore the mall. hopefully get xmas presents. if not i'll join cheekoon for movie tonight. YeaH!!!!!

2002-12-20T22:53:00.000-08:00

sunshine after the rain puleeeeeaaaassssee??

i got dragged out of the bed by my mom this morning.. reminding me to go see the doctor...short 10mins consultation cost me 30 bucks. sucks man. had lunch at delifrance with my folks at west mall then we window shopped abit. cheekoon told me that he has to go see one of our friend's gig at mountbatten this evening.which simply means that i wont see him today then. slim chance... of cos i'm not veryyyy verry happy abt it but what can i do?? i dunwanna be a hard to please bitch or something. but it's just that we've made arrangements long ago that we'll go shop b4 christmas once i get paid. ..hmm..

and i tot i could finally give him a big treat tonight for dinner.. but since he's not free..then too bad lor.. dont blame me next time when i finished spending all my cash. =PP

i've long made plans with jiahao to go chill out at the spanish bar "ocho" at chijmes a long time ago. so i called him up .. it's on tonight. he told me that his mom is interested in joining us.. hehe.. so i tot.. why not?! maybe she'll even buy us a couple of drinks or something. heehee.. i'll be going shopping in town for presents with him first before meeting his mom tonight. but sucks... it started raining again when i got home from west mall. i checked the weather forecast... orchard "showers with thunder" . fuck~ .. i mean it always seems to rain on my days off work. WHY!!!???

2002-12-19T22:49:00.000-08:00

what's up with him?

1)it's the weekends again. = no work = no early mornings... yippee

2)i've got my pay. yes, finally. yipppeee!!!

3)i could finally do some damage to my bank acct with the money. yippee yippee!!!

4)had a short 10mins conversation with cheekoon after my work. just doing some catching up with each other after 2 weeks. that made me really happy. at least he's willing to spend 10mins talking to me.

5)recieved 2 sweet and extremely beautiful xmas cards. (thks to li-wei and weicong!!)

6)recieved bessie and aneta's email.

7)finally had the time to do a mini facial, hair mask and take a longggg 1 hr bath.

8)managed to visit everyone's blog and spend quality time replying to all my emails.

i'm feeling so much better now.

went out for dinner with my folks at boon lay, daniel called soon after i got home. he wants me to stay over at his place tonight and i can just hang ard at his place till tomm or something. watch vcd and play games. yea right.. hello? his place is like one of the most ulu and inconvenient places for me to go. sengkang... even though there's a direct bus from my place to his place. it's a freaking 1.5hrs bus ride. no way~ besides i've no intentions of staying over at his place this time round. i just dont feel right about it. anyways, he sms-ed me a while after trying to persuade me to go over to his place.. i just 'act blur' . wahah... he kept persuading me to go over to his place and hang out with him. duh~

by the time he called me up again i was already in my pyjamas with night cream on my face. hehe.. he was like " okay then. it's okay lor. nevermind, maybe some other time. " he's so trying to play it cool but i could tell that he's either pissed or dissapointed with me. probably he thinks that i'm still taking him seriously or something like that. the truth is, he has dissapointed me again and again.. in every single way and aspects .he could never get things right or done probably. then giving lotsa fucking childish excuse for his actions as if i'm that naive/dumb.then he'll walk out on me immediately whenever trouble walks in. i might make him sound as if he's a horrible guy but i really dun care. you can never know what kind of person one is unless you really get to know him/her right?? he's just not 'man' enough for me. period.

there's quite a drastic drop of visitors and comments recently. i guess the 'heat' is over . sometimes i feel like closing this blog. it's no longer that place which i used to know...i dont feel as much for this blog anymore like i used to.i dont know why?

friday is pay day

okay... i think i'm getting paid today. FINALLY.. after creating a big fuss which provides total entertainment for everyone..heehee..always a pleasure. so the on going drama which i totally went hoo-haa about has come to pit stop. just for a week..before the whole saga begins again. -wow-...

yupe, so i'm feeling a whole lot better right now ... less temper of course. i got the photos developed for the dinner and dance. it's pretty nice.. hehe.. they say i look photogenic.. i say i look freaking fat. so chubby. argh~..anyway i'll try to get it scan and put up asap lor. like i've said ..no scanner = no images. sorry =P heh..

daniel called me last night. hmm just talking crap.. he wants to see me today.. i'm still thinking about it. i dont think there's any reason why i shld go out with him anymore. hehe.. oh well. *shrugs*.i'm pretty happy.. just got an email from my ex classmate. she's from czech republic. hehe.. i think she mentioned something in her email saying she's attached now!? hehe..i'm so happy for you aneta!!!

first thing tomm, i'm gonna go see the doctor..then hopefully get someone to go shopping with me. heehee.. cheekoon's present, sister's present,hanwei's present, weiyang's present,order a cake to treat my colleagues as farewell,get the photos re-developed,collect other misc photos,have a good lunch, more shopping, more tasty dinner and deserts. hehe.. soooooo exciting!! yippee.. =D

can somebody pls give me a synopsis of the season finale for 'amazing race 2 ' ? i missed the show on ch5 last night. who won!?

2002-12-18T08:24:00.000-08:00

untitled

i was like 1hr and 15mins late for work. dont ask me how come i took so long to reach the office.... i couldnt get a cab at all.. stupid cabbies.. i got so frustrated that i took a bus instead and called in late. then i had to deal with the whole 'nov pay' issue again when i get to the office. the accountant from the agency called me.. well of cos i was demanding for my pay again.. she kinda raised her voice at me.. and was trying to show that she's very irritated by me.how dare she!!! bitch~ i returned her a favour by raising my voice and showing my impatience as well. i mean ,come on...seriously! no reason why i shld get raised voice from such a irresponsible company and person like you right? it's MY HARD EARNED MONEY for god's sake. if only you've given me my pay promptly... none of these would have happened anyway. right???! arseholes.

from my settlement with her over the phone conversation, she told me she'll get everything done for me by friday. she BETTER man... orelse i'll be most glad to send my letter to the Ministry of Manpower for their Kind attention & action. i have enough of this kinda of nonsense. totally zero tolerance level now. Ok ! enuff of this depressing crap....

i recieved this weird call last night. apparently it was the same guy who called a couple of mths ago one late night. he doesnt even know who is he calling or anything..he just 'punched' random numbers.i got rather disturbed by the late call that i really dissed him off and hung up on him. to think that he still has the cheek to call again last night. he told me that he just came back from canada and stuff.... blah blah blah.. he wanted to make friends with me.... blah blah blah.. he's like a agent for fashion shows and stuff in canada. blah blah... we had like 15mins on conversation and i bid him goodbye and best of luck in future after rejecting him for the 'friendship' deal. but one thing though, he has a nice voice.. haha.. well..one of the weird things ppl can do . call random numbers and make friends? beats me...

my colleague's sister just gave birth to a baby boy this afternoon..guess what she sms-ed me just now.. they struck lottery this evening!!! ..$7.5k.....that's a neat sum of money eh??they bought the newborn's time of birth... so lunch's on her tomm! yippee.... i'm really lucky... i had free lunch today, gonna have a free lunch tomm..and another free lunch on Monday!! wheeeeeeee~

it's another crazy day at work, running here and there.. lotsa paperwork..and calls to distrupt me. argh.. but time pass faster when i'm busy.at least i'm truly working.. not just fooling around like as if i'm in attachment or anything. well i was watching 'two guys & a girl" on Axn just now.. i cannot have enough of that show man.. it's so hilarious!.. hehe. i like the way they phrase their jokes...

Christine's back from her holiday at New Zealand... lotsa nice photos of Nz. Go take a look!!

April's got a new layout and it's very pink!!

Feng's blog was mentioned on today's computer times. hee hee cool~

2002-12-17T09:33:00.000-08:00

pissing day

i was feeling really edgy when i was on my way to work this morning. the perm staff that i'm replacing is coming back from her maternity leave today. so it's like whatever duties i've been doing for the past months, i'll be handling over back to her.. i'll be working with a new partner and stuff.. new desk.. new comp..new customers... new things to do & learn.

so far it was okay. didnt have much to tell her either...really busy day at work.. i just kept sighing subconsciously. i'm really upset man. it's just so stressful... not the workload but the "Pay Cheque" issue. i mean seriously... it's already mid week and next wk's christmas!!! i've not gotten my NOVEMBER PAY. the fucked up agency is so pissing me off. the freaking accountant bitch went on holiday and she just came back!!! it's like a whole entire mth of holiday man!!! dont you have anyone to cover your duties or anything??it's not one or two days man... it's a fucking whole month!for crying out loud.argh~ so much so for PROFESSIONALISM. fuck. so i was like DEMANDING for my pay and she was like " yea yea.. i know.. but i just came back from holiday ya know, i'm still doing the sorting out and stuff"... she repeated that a few more times when i asked her for a FIXED date of when i will get paid. all she could give me was " hopefully " , " i will try" ,"maybe" , "perhaps" ... fuck fuck fuck~..

it's like the 2nd time this kinda freaking nonsense i'm getting from them. if anyone recalls.. the same thing happened the last mth. wahlua.... by the time i get paid.. i think it'll be AFTER CHRISTMAS liao!!!!fuck man.. wat nonsense man!!! i really wanted to break down and just cry man. i'm gonna fucking go pester them tomm man. my colleague says i'm too soft and not demanding enough. i think she's right man. damnnit. i wanna get xmas present for cheekoon ok, and a birthday present for my sister . at least i wanna do that for them. how am i supposed to do that when i've got like literally no cash on me right now? fuck...

i went groceries shopping at carrefour today with my folks... gotten myself another 2 nail polishes.. red and bronzy gold. i love the red. =) then we had japanese food as well.. while we were walking towards the carpark.. past the fountain of wealth, they were playing Bruce Springsteen's "secret garden".... i just stopped and stood right there. it has been so long... i tot i've already long forgotten this song. this meant a whole lot to me. i nearly cried ... it's just so beautiful. one of my best memories with a boy... it still is. if only we could end up like them in ' jerry maguire '. but it'll never happen now... never felt the same ever since we said goodbye.

Bruce Springsteen "Secret Garden"

(i was just about to tell you that i love him. i do ! i love him !! i love him !! i dont care what you think , i love him for the man he wants to be and i love him for the man that he almost is! i love him laurel!! i love him!!! )

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

( you gottha be fair to her ! she loves you !! and if you dont love her, you gottha tell her )

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you've got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

( what if we got married? if i said that , would you stay?)
( nonono, dont do that , dont say that unless.... )

You've gone a million miles
( well , you can say that if you want to... )
How far'd you get?
( will you marry me? )
To that place where you can't remember
( what do you think?)
And you can't forget

(laurel !?! we're getting married!!!)

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away

(do you jerry maguire take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife? and do you dorothy boyd take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband? i now pronounce you husband and wife. )

( i pretended that proposal by the car was real. And it might have just been a hypathetical. i did this. And at least i can do something about it now. )

( so this break is break-up? come' on jerry , you know this isnt easy for me.)

( okay..this is where it has to happen..this is where it has to happen. i'm not letting you get rid of me. how about that? i'm the smart one...i love you. do you??? complete me...)

( just shut up..just shut up... you had me at 'hello'....you had me at 'hello'. )

2002-12-15T23:09:00.000-08:00

a day @ tampines

i skipped work today again. i've totally no mood to work anymore. hehe.. it's always the case.. how would you have to mood to work when u've not even recieved ur pay for so long!? stupid agency. i reallyyyy detest it man. !@#$%. hai.....
one thing i really hate about myself is my punctuality problem. ehhe. i can never be punctual wor. hehe.. sucks man. i better work on this big problem man. i missed the shiseido appt yesterday. hehe. my folks gave a lift to tampines.. i had to return the clothes back to suhana anyway. then they brought my dearest coco to the vet @ pet safari yesterday. she's having rashes all over her body so she always feel itchy. we have no idea why.. it's probably the food she eats but we've changed her food so many times.. dog food just doesnt seems to work for her. she has been having this problem for the past 1+ yr. no vet can totally cure her. sad case.

so she had an injection at the hind leg and lotsa medicine. my poor baby~ but she's really brave .. she doesnt seems to have a problem with injections. she'll usually just stand real still and let e vet do their stuff.. good girl!!! =) *sayang sayang* not to even mention the really expensive bill that came along after her visit to the vet's. hehe.. i just hope she gets well soon.

i called up li wei when i was at tampines mall.. so happens that he's doing some shopping at tampines mall as well!!! fate !!!! hehe.. so we met up and he bought me a stuff toy cow !. or so we both called "KINGCOW" ..heheh. it's a long story how we got that name. but 'kingcow' sounds ahem cute.~ eheh...we both both xmas cards and stuff for our friends before meeting up with my sister. took some photos with the xmas deco outside Tampines mall. it's really great 'bumping' into him again, long time since we met.

after that, me and sister shopped around at the bazaar outside the mall before meeting up with her bf at pasir ris. had thai food for dinner at the foodcourt.. pretty yummylicious. hehe.. i think the cook's thai tat's why. wah..smart guy leh. he married a thai wife then ask her to cook and help him make money at the stall and............still sleep with him. hee.. okay.. i talking crap now. hehe

so freaking broke by the end of the day man... look at what i'm bought!!

1) 10 colour eyeshadow palette (blue series)
2) huge box of christmas cards
3) Cleo (jan 03) magazine
4) EzLink/Coin wallet.
5) Drycleaning for Suhana's suit
6) a small gift for one of my friend

when's my pay cheque coming in?!?!?! *frustrated*

2002-12-14T22:45:00.000-08:00

post mortem

didnt have the chance to blog for the past 2 day. so sorry ppl~ eheh.. well the dinner and dance was okay. kinda boring though... very simple affair this year i heard, so yea.. they had games and stuff.. they all kept pushing me up on stage .. so embarrasing. they even had this " who wants to be a millionaire" game.. the starting win was $8 . wahha... i couldnt even get thru the first qn. whaha.a. why!!???.. come on... know what kind of qn they asked me ?? " how many parking lots are there in 27 tanjong penjuru (my company) ? my gawd ... the floor went silent!!! cos nobody knew the answer... including me... wahlua... so paiseh. answer: 23 parking lots. DAMNNIT~~~~.... and i tot i could win $8 as cab fare home. grRrRrrRR~

but i'll have to say the lucky draw prizes are quite tempting man. grand prize was a fridge then they had $400 shopping vouchers and lotsa shopping vouchers and then more shopping vouchers. one night's hotel stay... watches, vacuum cleaners, dvd players, microwave, lotsa lotsa funny stuff.. and then they had DIGITAL CAMERA!!!!!! wahlua.. so just imagine... everyone on the floor would win something.. so imagine how boring it would be go have a lucky draw for over 100 people. so boring man.. meantime while waiting for ur turn and sit there and stone lor. ehhee.. of cos.. me being a temp staff.. no chance of lucky draw lah. sucks man. ehheh

It's quite amusing cos just next door to our function room.. prudential's having their d & d too.. their theme's quite similar to ours. hehe. " back to the 60's " i think..cos the girls were all dressed up in the 60's costume. Big earrings.. big hair.. very a-go-go style. super cool... really. ehhe. then the guys were all dressed up "wong fei hong"style.. mandarin collar shirt .. hehe. for my side.. the guys were in indian suit, batik shirts and stuff... then the girls were in sarong kebaya, cheongsam, baju kurung, sumfu..etcetc.
but the door gift's fantastic. an umbrella!!! hehe.. =P i won lotsa praises for my attire and overall look. hehe. cool~.. kinda pleased that my effort paid off. thks to suhana's $400 suit~. hehehe..took lotsa photos as well.

then i went to meet up with alice yesterday for dinner . i realised that i'm not really into shopping anymore. nothing seems to interest me.. strange. we had thai food.. totally yummylicious. i took photos... wait till i get it developed. then we went to this fruit cafe called "goshen" in marina square. really interesting place. a really cute guy served us. i think the shop is setted up by youngsters... university students. probably all trying to have a feel of doing business? but it's seems to be working out fine. at least the shop have customers coming in at regular intervals =).. pretty good service mah... they greet and smile and everything. but the guy's really really cute looking. *giggles* anyway... we tried out their fruit chocolate fondue... oh my gawd. it's heavenly. hehe.. totally sinful. it's pretty easy to do lah. i mean just cut up the fruits then serve with warm chocolate for you to dip with the fruits. hehe.. very romantic feeling. heheh..

i've arranged a dinner gathering with my classmates and their respective partners on the 28th. and i've picked a french restaurant at suntec. hehe.. so looking forward to it. oh wait... but i've gottha look for a partner first!? damn~

2002-12-13T00:24:00.000-08:00

shit..it's raining again.. no what am i supposed to go out!?

the topic says it all. totally describes how i'm feeling right now.raining heavily outside right. how to leave the house!!?? argh..dampened the whole spirit. just got home.. we closed at 3 today. woohoo. everyone's pretty excited. i went looking for shoes and earring yesterday at bugis. not much choices.. and even those which i like.. it's too freaking expensive. sigh~ so i bought this very affordable black satin pointed heel with little diamante on the side from tangs. hehe. very conservative wor.

to make things even worst , i got harassed by this sicko guy whose just half my height!! i was walking behind my folks talking on my mobile. then this guy was walking behind me. then he kept going " eh hoi.. hello, hello... hoi.. eh eh eh... hello.." as if he's calling me. i didnt hear him at first but he kept going on and on. so i turned and looked at him. he freaking gave me a smirk and dirty look grin. fucker!!! then he started to walked next to me , pulling closer and pulling .. i just pull away and stared at him. he whistled at me and even called me sexy!!!! bloody sicko!!! i was about to call out to my dad..but we reached the traffc light already. i quickly stood beside my dad. he just kept looking. fucker man. i mean i cannot imagine what wld have happened if i didnt stand beside my dad... he'll stalk me or follow man!!! wahlua... freaking arsehole man. argh!!!! i'm so mad!!!!

i'll have to go get ready soon but seriously, i dunnoe how on earth am i supposed to leave the house in that suit. i'll be drenched like hell man. argh. doing some touching up for my nails right now... then gonna pack my bag.. then hopefully the rain will stop by then. but it's unlikely it'll happen.

i'll update the links later tonight k? april's so sweet.. she responsed to all my entries!!! i'm so touched!!! onz lah. we go shopping or go malaysia lah hor? whaha... and bessie's coming again next month!!! yipppeeee.. this time round i'll definately hang out with her more. hehe.. why? cos i'll be out of job by then. hee.=P oh yea.. i spent the entire morning trying to break the login code to the internet on my office comp. hehe.. i accidentally erased the code yest so i was like desperately trying to break the code. hehe..well i did.!! heheh.. =P i'm no hacker.. but a code breaker!!! muahahah

i hope i win something tonight. hehe. at least got present mah..

2002-12-11T19:15:00.000-08:00

so little time!!!! 24hours not enough!!!!

i'm so tired. lacking of rest and sleep...slept for onlY 3hrs the day before.then 4hrs for yesterday. going crazy already..cant do my work properly also. aiyah!!!! gonna rest super early tonight. cannot take it anymore.

went to my sister bf's place for dinner last night. kinda weird cos i know nobody there and it's so weird. suddenly one day someone's sis just pop by ur place and have dinner with the entire family. awkward right!? hehe.. but it was a pretty nice meal. lotsa chatting and stuff. but of cos, i couldnt understand their conversation as they were all conversing in hakka. i'm a khek but i dont understand hakka, cant speak hakka as well. hehe.. i'm not brought up in dialect speaking environment and my parents has never taught us dialect. in order not to confuse us further.

good thing my sis bf's place is just like one bus stop away from suhana's place. really had fun trying out all the malay costumes at her place. i even tried tried an indian suit!!! think it's called punjabi? i look damn funny!! wahhaah!!!after trying out all her kurungs and stuff.. i shortlisted 3 of it ( one pink, one blue, one gold ) which we couldnt really decide on which one. so i brought home all 3 to ask my mom for the 3rd opinion. hehe.. i'm so grateful to suhana cos she's so generous !! i mean she even let me loan her new kurungs! which is like soooo freaking expensive!!?? S$400!!!! ahem... i've never worn anything this expensive in my entire life.

my mom picked the blue one... it's also a kebaya but not sarong kebaya. i'll take pictures of me in all the 3 costumes and post it up here later. not so soon..probably over the weekend..provided i can find a scanner? hehe.. then i took some grad photos from suhana as well. very nice!!! hehe.. erm erm what else.. nothing much now. just gottha get shoes and probably earrings today. phew..

suhana's mom is suck a good cook!!! she bakes really fantastic cookie!! so yummylicious. i tried the almond cookies and pineapples tarts. my gawd.. tastes so heavenly...reminds me of my grandma!!! hehe.. =P

bessie should be on her way back to KL right now. was supposed to meet her and her bf for supper at newton last night but i was so tired man. sorry bess!! but we'll keep in contact k?? k jonathan? hehe..

alright.... have to get back to work now. later guys~

2002-12-10T09:34:00.000-08:00

meeting with bessie

i met up with bessie and her bf at jurong point. she's such a sweet person! well bessie's our fellow blogger as well. she came down from kuala lumpur so we took the opportunity to meet up. we spent like hours chatting at coffeebean. felt like old friends catching up with each other! =) it was really fun. hopefully i get to meet up with her tomm or something. then again, i might be paying her a visit in KL next yr or something? hehe.. anyone wanna join me?

some of the guys recieved my xmas cards.i'm glad they liked it.sijie's enlisting into the army tomm... ohh.. so gonna miss him! hehe..anyways tomm's another long day for me. gottha go to work,drop by suhana's place then my sis's place. in the meantime hopfeully get to meet up with bessie and cheekoon. wah.. i think i'm superwoman already. phew!

i've called up the agency, they'll only give me my pay cheque like the earliest next wk, meaning i wont have cash to buy new clothes for the annual d & d. Great~ my last resort was to borrow cash from janan and cheekoon at such short notice. hai so paiseh.

i called up cheekoon and complained abt my kebaya.. i think he got my 'hint' so he said " i'm not gonna book out this wk .. but i'll see if i could meet up with you tomm evening to pass you the money k? " thank god. my saviour. seriously, i just hope i could find suitable pieces at suhana's place. so it wuld really save lotsa trouble & money. =P

i'm like now in hanwei's place. we just finished watching 'the exocist'. FREAKING SCARY show man.it's a 1970's movie and it's like so much more scarier than any other horror show i've ever watched. totally freaked me out. my gawd. i dare not sleep alone tonight liao man.

6510 is better than 8310?? serious not?? i really dont see a difference leh. ehhe... probably i just not good with mobile phones =P

2002-12-09T22:53:00.000-08:00

yippee!! i've got my 651-oh!!

having a very good morning today. not only did my comments hit over 10... it was 19 when i came in this morning!!! yippee!!! first time ever in history. thank you thank you and thank you so much! =) my folks bought an nokia 6510 yesterday.. hee hee!! finally got the chance to use a new phone after 2yr 8 mths with my 8210. actually i'm still very much in love with my 8210. so i'm gonna really make sure it 'dies' first before i switch over to the new phone. i'm a very sentimental person ya know. ;p

'zhen qing' 's last episode was really great. one big happy family after all. wonder if there's really such a family in reality? i'm so stressed up now. my sarong kebaya top shrunk after washing and now i cant fit into it! damn! feeling so bumped out and desperate now cos the dinner's this friday. i dont have much time left!!! nor cash... sucks. hai... i just hope suhana has something for me in her wardrobe. -cross fingers-

went clementi for dinner with my folks yesterday then i met up with my two neighbours for a chat. been a long time since all of us sat down together for talk cock session. me and maria were like dying to catch ' the bachelor' at 10 so we went up to hanwei's place to watch the final episode. so that mr bachelor alex picked amanda over triesta. hmm... why are men like that? they would rather choose a person whom loves them more than they love the person. insecurity? ahh well.. it was great seeing maria and hanwei again, felt like old times... we're gonna crash over at hanwei's place tonight. gonna watch 'the exocist' together. hehe.. that's if i'm not too tired. =P

oh yar, cheekoon's not my boyfriend wor. just a very close friend of mine. but it's nice having him around me .. so no need for the bf/gf thingy. as long as everyone's comfortable and happy hanging out together isnt it??

i'll be adding u guys into my bloggers' links tonight k? it's too troublesome doing it in the office. there's 'people' are watching. ... working now mah...

2002-12-08T08:25:00.000-08:00

i skipped work today! yippee

i turned in really late last night. was writing my diary then i started sending xmas cards out to all my long lost friends. i hope they get my cards.if not i hope they still rem me. =P feeling very accomplished. i couldnt get out of bed this morning so i just sms-ed my colleague telling her i'm not feeling very well so i wont be going to e office today. (liar!!) hehe. my dog was like barking and jumping up and down by my bed trying to wake me up when it was like 7am. haha now she's my personal alarm clock. very personal indeed. i love that dog~ i brought my dog out for a walk when i went to buy lunch. she was so happy! hehe.. i had this craving for the wanton mee from e nearby coffeeshop , i finally fulfilled e craving. totally yummylicious.

i realised that the borders cafe outside wheelock's place is gonna be replaced by coffeebean! hmm wah.. more competition for starbucks now. but ehhe. it's good news to me!!! wheeeee!!! i used to spent numberous hours slacking at the starbucks there with my friends. i miss those days. too bad everyone's changed, everyones' moved on.. made new friends forgotten the old ones of cos.this is called 'growing up and moving on' isnt it? =)

i've never seen the comments left by my visitors pass the digit 10. so sad... it has been 4 mths since i started this blog, still not much luck. all the blogs that i've visited have so much support from their visitors. i wonder how they do that...?

visited : stephen , anne , melanie , tanya i love this site! jimmy, jo , mavic , terry

swimfan

1) i saw many of my old friends today. bumped into the 1st person at the bus stop. he's actually my very very distant relative. i didnt speak to him. i wanted to!! but he stood up, flagged dwn a cab and zoom off in it. the 2nd was at the bus stop as well. she used to be in the same abacus class as me when i was like 11? hehe. then i saw my neighbour hanwei at the bus stop as well. ( ??!!??) next i saw primary school mate in jurong point.he didnt see me. then i bumped into my sec sch band mate kelly in the cinema toilet. she walked past me and i called out to her. we didnt stay and chat. (??) -grins-

2) we ( cheekoon & me) were supposed to go catch a show in the omni theatre today. he was so sweet.. he even went home early to rest so he could make sure we get to go out today!! despite the fact that all his close buddies were staying over at their friend's hse playing mahjong. ehhe..i was like asking why he went home instead of staying over at his fren's ..he said he's worried that he'll sleep the whole sunday thru and end up not going out with me again.-awwww-

3) we didnt get to watch the show anyway. he woke up this morning and he tot i'm still asleep so while he was waiting for me to wake up he went to do his stuff then he got tired and fell back to sleep again. then when i woke up at 12 , i tot he's still asleep.. so i didnt want to wake him up. i called him at 3 and his bro told me he's sleeping. 1/2 sian. i didnt wan to wake him .. so i waited. then by the time he woke up it was pretty late. he was so upset that he dozed off again. (cute)

4) we met up for dinner at clementi. i wanted to eat the western food but he wanted to let me try out the bbq stingray there. he kept taking food for me '"nah .. eat eat!! it's very nice!! eat eat!! " "nice? want somemore?" i'm the happiest girl in the whole wide world man. =) i've got this thing with people taking food for me. i always get very touched when one takes food for me. so it's a BIG deal to me. it does mean alot to me. after dinner , he was like suggesting of getting ice cream and i tot he was still hungry but noo... he said " me still hungry? no! i'm getting the ice cream for you. isnt that always the case? u always eat ice cream after ur meals? " ...hehe.. i'm still the happiest girl in the world.

5)we bumped into my neighbour hanwei in the cinema at jurong point.(again?). we watched swimfan .. interesting plot. pyscho man that girl. ehhe.. =P he needed to go back to camp tonight to get some work done so i sent him to the train station. took a long walk all the way home. but i'm smiling =)

listening : "xie yi shou ge" - Shunza

2002-12-07T22:43:00.000-08:00

diamonds are a girl's best friend

woohoo i struck gold!!! i didnt meet up with hanwei instead i sent a sms to alice asking her out for coffee. when i was changing my folks called me and told me they're at imm and they're gonna buy diamond bracelets for me and my sis!!! they were asking if i wanted to go down and choose personally... i flew down there man.hehe.. so now i've got a new diamond bracelet!! hee hee hee hee hee hee hee hee.....but what i really wanted was earrings but...nevermind..

then my folks sent me down to bugis to meet up with alice.. and i was like 2 hrs late.. i know i know.. really horrible right? hehe..we had a fabulous dinner at 'the coffee connection'..then we shopped ard and i bought a beaded evening bag for my dinner & dance. so now i'm freaking freaking broke. we had coffee at starbucks , sat there chatting for hours.. i was telling her abt my job and company , boys,life..blah blah the usual. really nice catching up with her and she was telling me that lotsa ppl were talking abt me during the grad ceremony. huh?

sijie's called me up and asked if i could go to msia in 2hrs time..i was like "huh? wat the hell are u talking abt?! " it appears that one of my fren has lost her passport so she couldnt go for the trip and they are desperately looking for someone to fill in her place. and it's for FREE. my god.. i was so tempted but i seriously couldnt go.. i have to work. damn... it's for FREEE leh!!!

we walked to chijmes and started our bitching session again till 2.30am. cool !took a cab home and i had a brief chat with hanwei when i got home. i'm so blissed!! =) it's sunshine after the rain!

2002-12-06T10:08:00.000-08:00

rain rain go away. come again another day...

was asking cheekoon if he wanted to go out today but he's going over to his friend's hse later... to play poker or mahjong i guess. wahlua... i 1/2 sian liao , i tot i could go to e omni theatre today. fuck man... so freaking bored. low on vitamin M so i cant go shopping , low on vitamin M so i cant go eat sashimi . low on vitamin M so i cant do anything i want. where's my freaking pay cheque gonna come ? i wonder.

ivan's busy today too. he has dance rehearsals. 1/2 sian. jiahao & liwei are working today. 1/2 sian.fwah lua!!! weiyang's in camp i suppose and hanwei's sick since he came back from his thailand trip. but i'm gonna go out with hanwei now. just go jalan jalan. go take a breather. all my girlfriends are like out dating with their boyfriends... wahlua. -slap forehead- i dunwanna be a 'dian deng pao' ok. yucks.

ahhh great it's raining now. i'll be expecting hanwei to call me in no time.pretty sure he's gonna tell me to call off the meeting. hmph~i could go down to tampines to get the negatives from my sis & her bf. probably join them for dinner or something. but... aiyoh!!!! it's one hr's train ride from my place... what to do!!?!?!?!? it's really an indication to tell me that it's high time i go get myself a mr lover-lover to gimme some good loving !!! muahaha... as if i wld.

superboringfridaynight.

i just heard the most beautiful version of wang lee hom's "one and only" (wei yi). i was so touched that i cried. wahaha well done shijia. the version can only be found in his official score and vocal book released last dec.it's an acoustic jazz version of the song . just him and his piano.very intimate feeling. -sniff sniff- i've actually asked my sis to buy the book from taiwan last dec...and yes i only unwrapped the book like just now? what took me so long you might reckon... well my sis refused to give me the bk cos she wanted me to pay for it and of cos i refused to pay for it cos i felt she shld like give it to me as a present or souvenir from taiwan but noooo... she's so petty! hehe..then i was flipping thru her magazines when i saw the bk. hehe..*evil* so i just took the book ..the rest's history. =P i'm so evil huh??

well i dont even think she rems anything abt the bk now..it has been one yr. besides she only comes home back to her room like probably once a week. she'll never notice. =P cant wait for tomm morning!!! i could finally try out the pieces on my piano !!

i cannot believe myself!! i've been pigging out the whole entire day. chocolate,soup,pudding,jelly,ice cream,yakult... damn~.that's why i can never go on diets. hehe. the show on tv sucks... so boring .. i was too lazy to ask cheekoon out today as well.. it was like raining cats and dogs.. i suppose he'll never want to go out in such a weather. he wld rather stay home sleep,rot and 'pa' game. i tot i would take the day off and be a good girl , at least take the chance to pack up my room... well i didnt do it. errr i'll do it over the weekends. that's how i spent my public hol. hehe.. totally unproductive. hehe but tt's the exact way it shld be when one rest isnt it?

visited : ailee and feng and jeffrey

i've also added li wei into my blog links. then i realised he has used one of my old old old picture for his work. very cute illustration. very starbucks =)

2002-12-04T19:24:00.000-08:00

oh man!! john vito & jill got eliminated !?!

alright, i'm back from the salon trip and stuff. i didnt re-do my hair or anything cos it's gonna spoil my hair if i further damage my hair with those funny chemicals. so.. it's kinda like a wasted trip but at least i got to hear the solution from my stylist. bahhh...whatever.so i walked around in town alone all afternoon while waiting for bessie to call.. but she hasnt called me yet. i hope she's okay. =/

i continued my desperate search for shoes and bag to match my sarong kebaya. i've only got like less than a week's time to get everything done before the dinner & dance next fri. damn.. so freaking broke. when's my pay coming?!?!? i keep telling myself that i'm not gonna buy a bag's that too expensive or anything cos i'm not gonna use it often. got tons of bags already but the funniest thing is that i always use the same few bags... been using them since i was 15 or 16. very seasoned now. i've shortlisted abt 3 bags so far , and i saw really nice heels at tangs. not cheap though.hai..... i really hate this kinda functions.. it's like burning a huge hole in my pocket kinda thingy. i've not even gotten my hair & makeup appt fixed. aiyah... tian ah. *collapse onto the floor* help!!??

by 6pm i was on the bus making my way home. tired, hungry and i supposed bessie wont call till tomm. aiyah~ =P i called cheekoon up, asked if he wanted to meet up for dinner but he's too lazy to get changed. as usual =P everywhere's having sale... esprit, dorothy perkins,u2,bodyshop... so tempting. but i've not seen anything that i really really want. hai... cept for a digital camera and a holiday.

got home at 7 and not long after i was already sitting comfortably in the living pigging out with this huge bag of chips while watching 'zhen qing' before switching over to 'the amazing race'. i've always enjoyed the amazing race since it's first season. they've finally made their way to malaysia and singapore. hehe.. i've not even been to the national orchid garden?! wahlua... and i've only been to mount faber once in my whole lifetime. well done shijia... you call yourself a tourism student!? -knocks on head-

i got a ~~little~~ freaking pissed with jiahao when he replied " Fuck, Shut Up lah." to me on sms when i told him i've already docked off at half day. but at least he apologized not long after, orelse i'm never gonna speak to him. the usage of vulgarities to me is like a way of decribing the feelings i had at a certain time just like what the britons would like to say "it's bloody hot in here isnt it?! " never meant to use directly at a person ... so it's pretty rude i felt. but it's just what i personally feels. my views don't represent anyonelse's.

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BROKE & STRESSED

hari raya if eve

i can never be punctual!!!roar!!! was pretty late for work today. had a really really long and tiring day yesterday. i was so busy at work, by the time i dock off my legs were about to give way. then i went to collect the grad photos from my sister before meeting my folks in carrefour. hehe i love shopping for groceriess cos i'm so good at it.hehe.. =P my dad bought me a new hairstyling kit. philips 6 in 1 kinda thingy. you can curl , crimp or straighten your hair with it. pretty nifty. i've tried the curls... very nice!!! hehee. but the straightening gadget's not that fantastic. but at least i've got a new toy to play with!! muahaha

half day work today. hooray. but boo!!!! i've gottha go down to the salon to get my hair done again. seriously i dun even know if they would do my hair for me. but i'll try. the thought of sitting there for another 6hours just kills me. argh. hate it hate it hate it. waste of time. so i'll be in town doing my hair later while waiting for bessie to call me. she's coming to singapore today from m'sia. so looking forward to meet her. she's a great blogger!! =)

the grad photos looks pretty good. some pictures looks great.. i'll put it up but the only problem is that i dun have a scanner plugged into my system and i dunnoe how to use it. wahha.. then.. i have no idea how to put up the pictures here. so anyone wans to help me?

coffee later in town anyone??..

2002-12-03T20:42:00.000-08:00

dong xi zhai na li ???!!!?? wo zhen de bu zhi dao!!!!

wahah. everytime i think about the ikea commercial i'll just start laughing. the way my friends were fooling around with the ad during the graduation ceremony was hilarious. i stayed up all night, wanting to update my blog but the dumb blogger server was down "publishing not allowed" ... waste my time. so i had to blog in the office today. actually i've lots of paperwork to do now, piled up on my 'in' tray but... ahh well... take a break, have a kit kat. =P

i woke up late again and i just threw on whatever i saw first and off to work i went.sporting in a red top and black pants , one of my colleague walked into my office and told me i look great in red. very fresh looking. *wah!* yeayea.. it's not a pick up line or anything. my colleague's a female.. one yr younger than my mom to be exact. she's very motherly to me. hehe i like!!!! Ma Ma!!!!!!!!!

I've been delegated to more duties. ahHhHh... cannot eat snake liao. lol.. not as if i eat snake everytime, just that i usually clear my tray by the end of the day. now it's always coming and coming and coming. aiyah. i dunwanna talk about work here. sucks =P.
back to my grad ceremony.

well...ivan came. he totally dressed up . so handsome! i was swept off my feet when i saw him walk out of the elevator. hehe...everyone praised him for dressing up. i'm so proud of him. i didnt know he was in a rush to get bakc to school. he has some impt rehearsals going on and he kinda ditch the rehearsal in order to see me walk on e stupid stage. hehe. so touched. *tear in the eyes* then my best friend weiyang came slightly later. i felt so fortunate to have 2 of my closest friends with me. hehe.

after the ceremony i joined shermeen and her bf for dinner together with weiyang. we went to chomp chomp's . yummy.. very tasty meal. $50 for 4 person. so worth it =) then they kept on ranting about the ikea commercial. hhehe eating halfway "dong xi zhai na li!!??! ?? ..then shermeen will go " wo bu zhi dao!!! wo zhen de bu zhi dao!!" whahaa... -pengs-

i had a wonderful time . will be collecting the photos from my sister later after work. hehe so exciting. lunch time now... hmm everyone's like wondering why am i still typing heavily away. whaha...probably gonna go catch a show at the omni theatre this long hol weekend with cheekoon. hehe.. yippee.. i've never been to e omni theatre. i know i know.. i very kampong girl can?? happy? hehe..

heehee..zhen qing 's last episode on monday. whahaa.. everyone's so excited about it. my colleague even specially took leave from work to stay home and watch!! siao!!! .. anyway i heard there's this tinseltown fair going at the escape theme park. ehhe look fun. hopefully i can get someone to go with me. ..

bessie's coming to singapore tomm!!! i so excited. hopefully i'll get to meet up with her or something. ok ok.. i go makan now. later ppl. muaks!

2002-12-01T18:30:00.000-08:00

you make me wanna....

i really like this song " you make me wanna" by elva featuring blue. hehe.. i'm about to go get ready for my graduation ceremony. feeling erm... a little nervous cos i've not been on stage for the past 3 yrs ever since my last performance with my school band.i miss the band days. not the band members but the music and the applause. cheekoon's more sucessful in his 'music' life. he's a trombone player for victoria school and i'm a clarinetist. he continued playing till he graduated from njc. and of cos he knows more band stuff than i do. he has a gold medal winning band. mine's just a bronze. =P ... i've lost touch with music quite alot. i practically stopped playing piano after 12yrs. weird.

i turned in pretty early last night after painting my nails and having a brief conversation with my sister. working life is so boring. tell me seriously.. what's the motivation you have when you work?? the feeling of cold hard cash in your hands right!?... which means pay day is the only 'highlight' you look forward to. me too. the thought of having a shopping spree just gets me kicking man. oh yea and a spa retreat. i'm thinking what to get for cheekoon for xmas. probably a wallet set or a spa retreat?? wonder which he'll prefer.
he always pay for me... even when he's broke. i'm so guilty... i just have to make it up to him.

tv commercial nowadays are just so clever. they sure know how to capture the audience attention. what's your fave ad?? i really like the soo kee jewellery ad. the one with all the couples kissing in streets , train station, car...etc etc.. it's just really N-I-C-E. =).. the calsberg beer is really cool. the one when the guys just blows into e empty bottle to the tune of 'cant take my eyes off you' ?? everytime i hear it at work.. totally gets me grooving. wahaha...

opps. gottha go get ready now. i'm all set. red nails, black mango pants,white mango top,red shawl & heels. bye guys.

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2002-12-01T03:50:00.000-08:00

he loves me, he loves me not

i got home at 6am in the morning and i woke up at 4pm. cool huh?? i even missed my jap exam today. superd. well done shijia.-roar-
i've been really busy all week...the entire week just flashed before my eyes. wicked.sometimes i just wonder why i'm so much busier when i'm working than when i was studying?! at least i got to watch tv last time when i was studying~ =P the lost of private time to myself and compensating for my beauty sleep. i've kinda lost the interest to blog nowadays. find it a hassle at times cos i seriously couldnt find the right time to blog in peace. i wouldnt want to blog in the office.wouldnt have much to talk about in the office anyway and if i'm not working i'll be out anyways. hehe.. my off days are really precious to me.. hehe i would very much rather go walking hand in hand in town with someone else than blog at home. hehe. =P

work's getting really boring for me as well. sick of the same routine every single day. but hey... one more mth to go and that's it. 4 more weeks... plus there's lotsa public hols in btw..so what have i got to lose? i'm having my graduation ceremony tomm. soe excited. i still have not got the camera ready nor my clothes... my folks have not confirmed their attendence to the ceremony yet. sheesh. my best bud weiyang is the sweetest.he told me he'll be coming to see me graduate. it's definately something in my life i want to share with him. =) ivan is so sweet!. he totally made my day the other day. this is what he said to me " i'll love to see you graduate" ... is he always that nice to me!!?? yes!!! i love you 2 to bits!!! muaks! *tear in the eye*

saturday

i missed the graduate ceremony's rehearsal. shit~ so i re-schedule my appointment with wom-b for eyebrow trimming and asked cheekoon out for lunch. we arranged to meet each other on the bus to great world city. he wanted to see what's the whole new IMAX thingy was about in the cinema. we actually wanted to buy tickets for the IMAX after our lunch. $13 per adult. and the show's like 35mins!!!! crazy!! daylight robbery man. ehhe. we shopped ard , had lunch in this cafe called 'don cafe' in great world city. it's a new experience for us cos we;ve not been meeting up in the afternoon for a long long time. we wld usually meet up only after 5pm. ehhe. having lunch together is "refreshing" eheh.. we got really bored of the place then we hopped on the shuttle bus to orchard. bought tickets for this french movie " he loves me , he loves me not" in cineleisure. but it's 1st row seats~ my god!!!!

went for coffee at starbucks then dinner in takashimaya.the crowd sucks man. it's so crowded , we couldnt find seats in any restaurants!! not even macdonalds or kfc. so we ended up walking ard for 1.5 hrs looking for a place to eat. we got so frustrated , so we ended up in delifrance. cheekoon's such a glutton..he suggested going for hotate miso soup in sushit tei right after our dinner in delifrance. we rushed to sushi tei ordered our soup and sushi and missed the first part of the movie. we're pigs.... cheekoon's getting really chubby & 'round' nowadays..hehe. he's been having a good year i guess.no more long training sessions and running for him even since he got out OCS. but that's what i love about him. he's simple and down to earth.what's more important than having a good time and a good meal after a week's of hard work? he keeps me happy~ =) eheh.. but i got so mad at him when he told me he went to watched the 'returners' the other day.. without me!!!!. and he went for karaoke too.... without me!! apparently he has forgotten to asked me.-bish-but i know he'll make it up to me. hehe.. orelse i'm gonna nag non stop at him. he hates it when i nag. wahaha.

the show's really good. very cleverly made. i'm beginning to like french movies more and more.audrey's such a good actress.

daniel called me. he wants to meet up with me. weird. but i got him to pick me up after the show. we sent cheekoon home then drove around. we ended up in west coast park. hehe.. so many couples making out in the car.. haha.. we see black figures moving in the cars. hehe.. *wink*. free show. =) i got at 6am in themorning. totally dead beat but i'm feeling great. the 'date' with cheekoon was awesome and it's good to see daniel again after 3months. even though he's still as confused on our relationship . he's still unsure on what to do with me. i mean he's really selfish man. he wants to have fun but no make any commitments. fucked up. but i'm sure he'll regret cos i'm getting better each day.

friday

i met up with bernard after work today. we went to holland village for dinner. walked around abit in the mall then went for coffee at coffeebean. so many cute guys and babes !!! well... our meeting wasnt that smooth either, had a couple of intense conversation which broke out a fight again. probably that's how we both communicate. but i was seriously getting really pissed when he kept ranting about his girlfriend. but true enough i started the topic first. the main thing is that i was mad at him a long time ago.. so when i saw him again... it kinda reminded me that i was mad at him. so it's even more frustrating for me cos i got even more mad at him seeing him have no idea why i was so upset. hehe.women.... lotsa problems. =P he didnt even send me home... he just boarded the bus. well i'm a strong girl. who needs an escort? hehe that's the egoistic part of me. but i got really pissed and stuff.. i just took a cab home and turned in early.

thursday

i'm very dissapointed with the service of the staff at Kimage (Plaza Singapura) i'm serious. totally heck-care kinda attitude and totally not customer orientated. guess how much time i sat there to get my hair done that day?? 6 hours!!!! it's crazy man. i have seriously no idea why it took so long. one of the most memorable experience man. 6 freaking hrs in the salon. the master stylist trimmed my hair slightly cos he wanted to maintain my style and length... he did all the rebonding and coloring himself. that's one thing i have to compliment him abt. he's a fast worker and confident. hehe. however i dunnoe if it's me or the chemical or the stylist... i dont feel that my hair is exactly that straight but on e general it's much better than last time? my new colour's totally not obvious at all. stupid me. well.. i'll just wait and see how the condition of my hair goes this couple of days.. if i'm not that happy with it i'll go ask them to redo for me again. hopefully it wont take another 6 hrs this time. my sister's hair is so much straighter than mine! not fair!

the stylist was asking me if i'm eurasian. wahaha.. i'm not!!! just this month alone there's already 2 person asking me if i'm eurasian!maybe i look angmoh-ish. hehe.my colleagues all made so many comments on my hair. eeks. nmind about what they say. hehe. the only thing worth mentioning is that cheekoon was the only one who noticed my difference!! eheh.. " you did something to your hair didnt you!? he asked. hehe.. i was so surprised he noticed it. i mean i never knew he actually do notice me that much. i've always thought he didnt care what i wore or how i looked. i'm really glad he noticed.. at least now i know i'm still attractive to him. hehe. =P

2002-11-25T09:48:00.000-08:00

oh my gawd!!

i saw this really really cute guy downstairs when i was ordering my lunch!! ekkkss!! finally someone my age!! but he's probably a couple of years younger than i am or something .. big deal~ the thing is.. he's cute. period. hehee.. i think he's just coming round to despatch something to my colleague. roar!!! think this would be the 2nd time i've seen him in the office. some time back i saw him sitting at the waiting area in school uniform and i tot he was someone else's kid . probably looking for his dad or something. hehe...

i'm so sleepy and the radio ran out of battery! so lifeless in here. no music just the ringing of the telephones. urgh~ cant wait for lunch. yippee~ malay food anyone?

monday no fun day

it's a really slow day. probably i'm just too sick of the work again... i gottha find some ways to motivate myself at work. of cos.. if i were to get my salary .. i'll be all charged up! *wink* but damn i still have weeks to go. i totally dread it. all the action happens only in dec.i'm missing alot of people in my life right now. some are like a thousand miles away from me..right at the opposite end from where i am...some are just like a few mins away from my hse.. some are a phone call away. i'm yearning to hear their voices and laughter. i wonder why. creepy eh? but at least i did something. i emailed to those i miss... at least i tried to do something about it. rather than sitting away hoping for miracle?

pretty chatty day at work today with my colleague. we were exchanging information on what we've found out over the weekends and stuff. interesting... hehe. then i was telling her about how naughty my dog was. i told her that my dog steals our underwear and hides them under the bed... it's really funny. both of us laughed so hard that we started crying!! hehe.. =D

anyway, Her World magazine (dec issue) is giving free shawls. there's five colours to choose from. so it's a pretty good deal for $6. you get like 3 books and a shawl. what more can you ask? it's quite a bundle... very heavy. i was actually intending to get a new shawl over the weekend but right now i dont see the need for it. i bought the red and black shawl. the red one is reallly very nice. compliments most skin colour. =) my sis got the red and purple one. well the magazines are pretty much sold out in town area. so u'll probably have better luck at those ulu mama shops in the neighbourhood yea? selling like hot cakes.. everyone snatching away. very scary scene...trust me. hehe..

Lime magazine (Nov issue) has this coupon from kimage hair salon for 50% off all services. we went berserk. so my sis had to search high and low everywhere just to get the freaking magazine for the coupon. hehe.. then we were so relieved tat she finally managed to get 2 copies of the bk. but when she called and enquired abt the promotion.. they said it was only valid for local students and students must produce student pass. my sister just went mad. well.. it wasnt stated in the terms & conditions anyway and they didnt mention anything abt being only valid for students. poor planning?

i got really upset with the whole issue, so i posted a msg in their forum asking for a solution. it's just so totally lame. everyone has their own story. one say it's valid for anyone who has the coupon. the other say it's for local students only. wtf?! so confusing!!! to think i even told all my girlfriends abt the good deal...i'm helping them make more business k!? kaoz.. but anywho, the manager called me back and when i asked her again, she said 'it's for everyone'. then i asked her "are you sure? cos this aint what i heard from your staff when i called earlier ya know. they told me it's for students only!! "... -silence- she rambled off and came back shortly. " erm just tell me when u want ur appt. i'll book it for ya so you wont encounter any probs in future " ... my god. in teh first place if you guys had done a better job with e ad, you would have not gotten urself into so much trouble in the first place!!! see!! tis shows that greediness gets you nowhere.

i'm not the only one being confused by the lousy and uninformative advertisement anyway. but whatever it is. the lime promotion now is valid for anyone who has the coupon.(valid till 31dec) 50% off all services. so ppl having proms or dinners coming up... probably you might want to consider this deal.

then i was having this fight with mom over my overseas education and i had a small tiff with bernard last night thru sms. happens everything. i just dunnoe why we fight everytime we get into contact with each other. totally upsetting.argh. neither do i want to bring up the whole issue up here. suddenly i wish bernie is around.... cos i know he would just listen to me quietly then give me a big bear hug and stroke my hair. that's what i need most , i suppose. some consolation and comfort.

but the best consolation of the day. i had a good lunch and fantastic dinner at this french restaurant in suntec - Maison Basque with my family. it has been a really long time since we all ate dinner together. sweet~

she's back!!! check out her new layout!!!

2002-11-24T02:31:00.000-08:00

wicked sinner

how's the weekend going?? mine's hmm. pretty sinful i must say.Beside from indulging myself in the high tea chocolate buffet at shangri'la hotel ... i went for a mad rush at Zara.

i dare not even think about how much i've just spent in a couple of hours. i'm so horrible. but what am i supposed to do? who could resist the tempting smooth chocolate cakes and totally cool clothes?!

me and jiahao are just such poor planners. we intend to take the same bus to orchard. (he will get on the bus 2 stops before i do) so there i was at the bus stop... i presumed he knew i was there but i got on the bus without hesitating.. but guess what? i couldnt find his dear face on the bus!!! turns out that he was still the his bus stop thinking i've not reached! wahaha.. so i had to wait for him in orchard. i dont know why but throughout the 20mins i was sitting there waiting for him.. i've lost count of how many ppl actually walked past me and 'stared' at me.what's wrong with me i tot?? young chaps , tourists with their families some restaurant chef , some old guy...some malay guys. blah blah blah. argh.. so sickening. some even walked past me a few time. thinking that i'm so stupid that i wouldn't have noticed?!!! Cheapskate!!! i was so glad jiahao reached like 20mins after.

i was pretty surprised by how grand the hotel actually looks. really felt comfortable... but it's still little too posh for me. i'm not the kind of etiquette and 'mind ur manners or mind where you put ur hands' girl.... but there was a pianist playing really nice tunes. definately got my attention... i love the way she played 'melody' by tao ze and 'love you love me' - colin ray.

the waitresses wore cheongsam with really high slits cut. my god.. SEXY~!!!! they all looked so pretty!!! "why be a waitress? try air stewardess instead!! " i commented to jiahao. he nodded in agreement. =) the food was pretty ok for high tea... and they offered me this hotel rewards card Free! duh.. all the sudden i have a new card? but i find it useless to me anyway. who dines in the hotel 24/7? at least i dont. the ambience's pretty laid back... big victorian plush seats and nice view overlooking the other buildings in the area. sweeet~ i think the only thing i lacked was a digital camera so i could take shots of how beautiful the cakes looked!!! awww!!

anyway we're two blur heads... instead of using the entrance of the hotel , we used the exit. then when we're making our way out.. we used the entrance instead of the exit. get it?! wahhahaa.. such an embarrassment. pui~

i'll have to thank jiahao for holding onto my shopping bag all day.. hehe i was really so engrossed in shopping that i seriously didnt care for anything eheh....i saw a few nice jewellery to match with my sarong kebaya and caught a glimpse of the person behind "charles & keith shoes" i saw keith i believe. he was at the wisma branch. hehe.. =P

i went crazy at zara.. i'll spare you of the details but i'm impressed jiahao has the patience to just wait for me to finish my shopping. whaha.. maybe he didnt want to be a spoilt sport or something. then i saw my ex boyfriend's gang of friends...they must have thought jiahao's my new bf or something but oh pls... what do i care? they are just a bunch of morons/jerks anyway. just like my ex. =P

here's what i got
1) future state necklace
2) zara low waist jeans
3) zara white tube top
4) zara black tube top
5) zara purple top.

wicked huh?

dinner time. ciao!

2002-11-21T09:10:00.000-08:00

shalala...falalala

thursday
i met up with weiyang after work for dinner today. it has been like a few months since i last saw him. i'm just so thrilled to see him again. we went to the same primary sch together and we took the same school bus back time. he's two yrs older than i am.. so after we met on the sch bus, he took very good care of me since then.soon after he left pirmary school we reunited again , this time round, we started a rollerblading club. it was an amazing 3 years of intensive blading sessions. probably the best time of my life. it was during this blading thingy that we established a deep friendship btw e 3 of us. ( him,my neighbour & i ). i've been friends with weiyang for like probably 12yrs now. hehe.. it's just so unbelieveable. but we;ve never really had the chance to share lotsa things. he went into junior college, had his A's... now in army. i had my O's then went for my diploma. 2 worlds apart.

we had tim sum at crystal jade for dinner. yummmmyyyyy~! but i'm such a bitch man.. i was complaining and preaching the whole night thru about our friends and stuff like that. i think i've scared him? whaaha.. but anyways... he's very single at the moment. but well.. he has never been attached b4 also. whahah.. i think he's like the best guy ard. defintely a good catch for any girl. heheh.. chey?!why am i promoting him?? ehhe..anywho, he refused to let me foot the bill oh well.. hehe.. i guess i'll have to make it up to him by buying him a huge bdae present then. =) i'm so glad i got the chance to see him. it's so weird , even though we just live blocks away from each other... we never had the chance to meet up often. weird.

tomm's friday... i'm so happy. i cant wait for the chocolate buffet on saturday. i wonder where's jiahao.. he's missing in action all week! hoi?? where you ah bro??? rem ah... our date on sat!!! *wink* ;) those getting your results (poly) ...Good Luck.~! Nights!

wednesday
i went over to geyland serai with suhana,shermeen and jincai. hehe it was really an eye- opener!!! it felt like an educational tour... so happening place. lotsa bazaars and it's huge!!! lotsa things to look at !!! well i didnt know the baju kurung is actually that expensive!!!! so freaking ex.. my gawd.. my jaw dropped when i saw the price tag! they're all sosweet, so actively helping me keep a lookout for nice ethnic clothes. we saw this really really nice white baju kurung in kebaya design. drop dead gorgeous looking. even jincai liked it! the guys enquired the price and guess how much? $320!!! and they only have that one and only piece! (they made one only). but it looked really nice. very princess-like... but the price is too much for me.. i'm not gonna blow my pay on something that i'll be wearing for only a few hours. no way! =P.... we walked for a really long time. probably about 3hrs??? try not to go after 8.30pm cos the crowded will start to build up by then and there will be more pushing and squeezing...aka 'angry & sweaty' people. hehe.

the only stuff that caught my attention were the sarong kebayas..i really like the nonya/peranakan look!! so i tried on a few even though i have no intention of buying on the spot at all.. but who knows.. i ended up grabbing a set for myself. it's not very cheap for such a flimsy material. it's the workmanship i guess. so i've already settled my attire for the company dinner & dance party. - sarong kebaya!!! ta-daaa!!!! *applause* now i'll hafta start working on the rest of the accessories .. shoes,bag,jewellery.. hairdo & makeup. i hate this part the most.. cos there's so much of researching to be done.roar~

after sending suhana home, jincai actually showed us his workplace (since it's nearby).. hmm interesting to know where and what kind of environment your friend is actually working. esp when he's your good friend's bf? ehhe... jincai and shermeen = weird but extremely humourous couple. then they invited me to join them for a tour to malaysia in dec. i'm still considering abt it.. but it sure looks pretty tempting. ...hmm.. but we had a really good time last time. =)

2002-11-19T09:21:00.000-08:00

why i hate xmas

it's not that i hate christmas.i've no reason to love it.

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another stressful day at work today. my god. the cases i'm handling just get tougher and tougher each day.lunch suxx,,, just ate two mouthful then i threw the rest away. yucks. lucky i had a good dinner. then i went ikea with my folks.. the xmas decorations are so beautiful. and they were selling lotsa colourful decorations with streamers and everything. i was like " oh my gawd..this is my heaven".. i got myself lost in the middle of the store looking at the adorable gift boxes and candle holders and cushion... i had the urge to just throw everything down into the cart. hehe. i'll love to have all those things in my room. =) *daydream*

i've spotted a couple of paintings which matches my room ,some photo holders as well as vases for my room. i cant wait to buy all those home! =) anyone wanna buy me those for xmas?

i walked into this 'showroom' and it totally reminded me of a friend. as i sat down on the couch in the living of the showroom .. i turned to my left.. he's not there! for like 5 secs.. i felt i missed him. hehe. it so happens that me and my friend walked into the exact showroom a couple of months ago and we sat down on the couch together.. thinking how great it would be if by any chance one of our future house looks like this.hehe... speaking of that friend, we've not been in contact even since that trip down to ikea 2 months back... i guess he's doing fine now. heard he got attached ...awwwwww~ =)

now i'm totally addicted to the hotdog and ice cream served at the ikea cafeteria. it's just so yummylicious!! =b !!! i've just hung up with my sis. we're discussing about which salon to get our hair done and which spa to go to... hehe.. i'm pampering myself so much! hee hee.. gonna fix a appointment for haircut next mon then fix another appointment for facial and spa in early dec. yeah!!! cant wait!
check this out. this place offers great deals. very affordable prices compare to other places!! i've done my research well! eheh.. and it's run by a pretty cute looking guy!! =P think he's one of spore's sportsmen... errr swimmer i think hehe. i cant rem his name. hehe. but who cares..he's cute! period.

i'm gonna meet up with the suhana(my twin) and shermeen tomm. we're gonna go visit geylang. duh.. before you start thinking about 'those' things.. we're gonna go visit the malay pasar malams and everything. since hari raya is just around the corner.. there's definately alot going on in geylang.suhana's gonna educate us on the malay culture and traditions. besides, i need to get more exposure to ethnic & traditional clothings. hopefully it'll give me some idea of what to wear for my company's dinner and dance?

so sleepy. goodnight guys.